It takes time to realize

For me love is distraction,annoying,stranger,hurt and unexpected. Love is just a trash it makes you forget and dumb that every special moment, every special memory will just end like a blink its hard to realize and sink in our mind that love will never suit me there always a gap, a strong tall wall is always place me into another way which is so far of someone to be with and it take time to realize that someone is always my first, my dream, my man,my prince, my shining armour,my hero, my happiness but...but... it hard to confess when someone you doesn't belong you. Is this only the end? Is their any chance for us? Is their any way to fix it? or still like a fool? fooling yourself just to say okay.