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Fiction of Myself

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Reads 647
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Parts 20
Time 4h 32m

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It's the voice that whispers just before meal times to put less on your plate, it's the feeling of regret after you finished a piece of junk food you just ate, its the brain wrenching thoughts of being  alarmingly hungry but you cannot bring yourself to eat. 

For Parker Collian his was all he knew. The life of control beyond imaginable, hiding it from all the people you care for in your life, pushing people away, because the disorder is more important. 

This is the story of a young boy who was pushed into dastardly behaviour.

All because of a life in the modern mindset of control, that was now considered common and the people he met along the way, who changed his life for worse, or maybe for the better.All Rights Reserved

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If You Love Me

"If you love me, you won't leave me." Jessie has believed those words from her boyfriend, Josh, since senior year of high school. She loves him and doesn't want to leave him. Not even when he shouts at her and hits her. Jessie's best friend, Kolleen, can't stand seeing her in that situation. With a bit of convincing - and the worst beating she'd ever received - Jessie agrees to move into an apartment with Kolleen. But not long after, Jessie is scared the worst of her nightmares will soon become a reality. Josh goes missing, and suddenly Jessie would swear she's being followed. One night changes everything, and one person soon changes Jessie's outlook. A responding officer from that fateful night begins to seek her out, at first claiming it's part of his job. As she spends time with her new friend outside of his job, she starts realizing that her feelings are evolving. After being abused for over a year, Jessie is terrified she's falling in love. What's even more terrifying is that he might be, too. She isn't ready for love. Not yet. She makes up her mind that if he is falling, and if he does love her, he'll wait for her to be ready, and if she loves him, she won't let herself hurt him. Can the words that used to cage her in really be the key to her freedom? --- Featured On: @NA: Take a seat and let it be | Mature Content and 18+ reading list @NA: You deserve the world | Mental Health reading list Ambys Top Picks New Adult 2023