Find Me
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Last published Sun, Sep 10, 2017
My life was a plethora of problems. (See Mom I have been studying up on LSAT vocabulary thank you very much!)
#1 I have just lost my roommate/ my only friend at this University.
#2 All of my almost friends believe that I am a depressed slut, and they are only half wrong.
#3 I have been ordered to join a support group for survivors and families of people like me.
#4 I'm fat. Well 230lbs of sarcasm and bitterness. This isn't new, but it should well be mentioned.
#5 I hate talking to more than one person about my feelings, so thank you mom for this support group compromise.
#6 Its my senior year of college, law school applications aren't going to fill themselves out, and unfortunately for me, the LSAT refuses to take itself.
#7 My new roommate is way too cheerful, and is a morning person. I'm screwed.
#8 Her cousin is in my support group.
#9 Her cousin is quite possibly the most beautiful and sculpted and sexy guy I've ever seen in my life. It doesn't hurt that he might, almost, sort-of be starting to be like a friend...maybe.
And actually, the crux of my problems lies in this one truth. The truth that I hide behind my sarcasm, my brevity, my bitterness. Its not that I should make light of this, but if I'm not laughing, I would never stop crying. If I faced the reality I would break. So I apologize to any other survivors out there, because nothing about my situation, our situation, is really okay to joke about. It's just...I just...can't think of anyway else to talk about it.
#10 Last year I was raped.
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