when will you realize
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me writing about my life and feelings in a depressing book that honestly wasn't originally supposed to be published.
you're never alone, if you are easily triggered by depressing tones, please don't read this!! if you feel unsafe or suicidal, please get help immediately.
triggers: depression, heartbreak, anxiety
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