The feeling of being Alone
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Ongoing8m
Last published Tue, Sep 19, 2017
I want to tell everyone that this story is happy. That it's filled with friends and romance and other things that would make anyone want to read. But it's not. Sure, there will be happy parts, all lives have happy moments in time, ones you wish you could box and keep forever. My life has plenty of these, but I can't enjoy them...or maybe my mind just fucks everything up to the point where I think they're happy moments but they're not.
My name is Jessica Lodge, I'm in my first year of college. I'm living alone and I can't stand the feeling of being alone. Honestly for you to get this story, instead of starting at the beginning of the school year, we're going to start a couple weeks before I left for school.
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