Me venting--

Me venting--

newcastlewriter

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Last published Thu, Feb 28, 2019

anxiety depression mentalillness triggers

Vents. That's it. Here's all my fucked up emotions. ((This is NOT in character. This is personal shit that's from the person behind this account, NOT Connor Murphy))

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