Her Journey, My Struggle - allmylovingpaul - Wattpad

Her Journey, My Struggle

allmylovingpaul

Reads 6,323
Votes 555
Parts 69
Time 2h 21m

Reads 6,323
Votes 555
Parts 69
Time 2h 21m

allmylovingpaul

ana chronicillness ed feedingtube gastroparesis kidneydisease mentalhealth mia nonfiction recovery transplant tube tw

My sister was based on  Meaghan and she  was on the road to eating disorder recovery. On Sunday, Spetember 17, 2016, she was admitted to the hospital after a suicide attempt and a BMI of 14.7. After days of not eating, she made the decision that she did not want to live forever in the hospital. She did not want to be dependent on a feeding tube and did not want to be afraid of having seizures. She wanted to be happy.

However, she was likely also suffering from a genetic disorder that prevented her from fully healing with her eating disorder and from having her wish of no feeding tube or seizures and ultimately ruined her body. 

This first half is about a girl based on my sister and the second half is my story, after her life.All Rights Reserved

ana chronicillness ed feedingtube gastroparesis kidneydisease mentalhealth mia nonfiction recovery transplant tube tw

Table of contents

69 parts

Sign up to add Her Journey, My Struggle to your library and receive updates

or

#4gastroparesis

Content Guidelines

You may also like

Keep An Open Mind {Lynn Gunn} by Run-Dont-Walk

TW: this book may contain mentions of violence and of suicide. DISCLAIMER #1: I wrote this story when I was a teen and while some mental disorders are the focal point, they may not be accurate representations as I was far from being a psychologist. There are several things Lynn doesn't quite get about the world she lives in, which makes it harder for her to figure herself out. She is not your average teenager. She's young, intelligent, though something about her is off by now. Everyone is quick to misjudge and point fingers, everything and everyone is so corrupted that she's afraid she'll lose herself among a bunch of wandering, empty souls. Therapy can only help so much, depression is hard to die, and in Lynn's case it's caused solely by the fact she doesn't 'fit in'. She can't really find her place in the world. But there's something really special about her; Her dreams are haunted by a wonderful, mystical place. No one understands her, they think she's off her rocker, that she needs to cut her childish daydreams. But Lynn knows deep in her heart that place really exists, and she'll do anything to find it, with the help of some new found friends. There's only one thing she must do: Keep an open mind, it brings open hearts and open eyes. -- DISCLAIMER #2 This fanfiction is inspired to Mind Over Matter by Pvris and their lyrics in general. All you read here is fiction. every reference to real events or people is purely coincidental. I do not own the songs featured in the book. Credit to Pvris for the titles of the chapters. 2015 © Run-Dont-Walk

Skinny Love.. by LittleWitchyVibes

This story is about Mia Smith she is a normal teenager or so she thought. But with her struggle with Anorexia and Bulimia. Her depression and cutting she tries to brighten up her friends life even tho she can't brighten her own. So join in on her journey with Life,Love,Fights,Friends and most importantly Skinny Love

Falling Apart by 1_Will_3

*TRIGGER WARNING: DEALS WITH DEPRESSION, SELF HARM AND SUICIDE* Amber is sixteen years old and to sugarcoat it... She hasn't had the best upbringing. She would love a different life, one where she can see her mother again and not be stuck with her abusive father. A life where she doesn't get taunted and hit and torn apart by everyone who she has ever seen. But she would never swap, she doesn't want anyone to endure the pain she's gone through. So instead, she tries to get rid of it... Again. But much to her disbelief, she is saved by the people she would least expect. She learns secrets about them that no one else knows. She feels included. Cared for. And dare I say it... She felt loved. For once in her life, she felt truly happy to be alive. But just when Amber felt safe, her life was flipped upside down and her past came back to haunt her just when she least expected it... (Sorry, I suck at descriptions, don't let it put you off) Ranking: #64 in Awareness #15 in Mental Health Awareness #73 in saddness

𝓗𝓸𝓵𝓵𝓸𝔀 by beanzgetti4

Rita becomes strict with her eating, everyday the number of calories she eats gets lower and the amount of time she does cardio gets higher. She practices of managing her starvation by distracting it and never catches a break on the scale. Nobody is aware of it, it was something Rita doesn't want her friends or family to know, hiding her body from them didn't last long. Her mother noticed the dramatic weight change on her body. She tries to help her get back to her eating and tells her many times that she's "perfectly skinny" but nothing works. Her mother puts her foot down as Rita started to get ill, her mom takes her to a mental health hospital. She deals with consequences from her nurses and other patients.

New Beginnings (undergoing editing) by Depressed-Stressed

Liza Micheal's has a stutter, an eating disorder and self harms. Liza is a fourteen year old gay kid and no one really cares about her anymore, then to top it off she lives with abusive parents. So who's there to care? Exactly, no one. But when she is taken to the hospital due to one hell of a beating she finds out she has brothers.. who want to have a life and a good brotherly relationship with her and are willing to take her in. What'll happen next? DISCLAMIER: I am currently attempting to remake a few of the chapters because Wattpad deleted three of my chapters and I cant remember what I wrote. All chapters will be AT LEAST 3 actual pages long, with the font size at 12 which is about 1,700+ words Warning ⚠️: -Pain attacks -Self harm -Depression -Anxiety -Improper chest binding Other stuff rainbow 🌈 wise: GAY LESBIAN NON-BINARY

It was under control by myrealnameisasecret

Jules Hart returns to the psychiatric ward, her life has fallen apart once again. She had it under control. Or was it all just her imagination? She encounters trials and tribulations with her eating disorder recovery, being forced into situations like no other; ending in painful repercussions and unhealthy coping mechanisms. After deciding she no longer wants help, Jules escapes the psychiatric ward; resulting in her attempting to take her own life. The consequence of her actions, broke Tom's heart in the process, all the while he held her sick body. Her life has led her down the path of having to recover from not only the torturous eating disorder, but the addictive self harm and torment of the suicidal ideation. Let's just hope Jules gets her happy ending... ~ "GET OFF ME! GET THE HELL OFF ME! I DON'T LIKE BEING TOUCHED! GET THE FUCK OFF ME. TOM PLEASE HELP ME. TOM! PLEASE GET THEM OFF ME. I'M SO SCARED!" Jules's fragile body was making a forceful connection with the cold and unsympathetic ground. Her bloodline exiting and tainting her body and all of the surroundings. Her painful and emotional screams echoed the white corridor, while Jules's body shook and shivered, and dizzy spells with blurry covered eyes; forced her body and mind to experience a feeling of disconnection. The fit of fear that swirled in the pit of Jules's stomach made her head jolt violently side to side, along with front and back; causing her forehead to strike the floor. ~TW: Eating disorder, suicide and self harm mentioned throughout~

Ana by Wintersdancer

Life as a child was amazing. Your weight didn't matter. Your clothes didn't matter. Your parents money didn't matter. All that mattered was who you were going to play with, but that's all gone now. My sister hates me, my mom has no time for me, and my dad, well he left me. My life has been one whirlwind after another. Except I'm content with it, till it all comes crashing down. Every television, billboard, and magazine is covered with models. Models that are supposed to be role models, for us. Perfect face, perfect body, perfect life. I have none of those things. All my life I've never cared that I was over weight, and didn't wear makeup. Who knew a boy could change all of that? That's when I decided to starve myself, force myself to look like the girls in the magazines. Who knew all I was doing was slowly killing myself? Life likes to play games, except my game is called Ana and I don't think I will survive. (unedited) Cover by: MadHatter_25

Y/n Diaz, the new rookie by alexisheyyy

⚠️this story will have a lot of trigger warnings such as, self harm, eating disorders, purging and suicidal thoughts.⚠️ Y/n Diaz is 26 years old and decided she wanted to be a police officer. she struggles with her mental health after some bullying back in high school, they told her she was fat and should starve herself, so she did. but she continues starving herself as she still thinks she's too fat. why is she like this? why does she hate herself? also this is my first book i've ever wrote so please don't come at me! i do not own any of the characters from the rookie.

Different Doesn't Mean Broken by GaylaBer

This is a collaborative novel between StoryZen, who will post the same story on Inkitt, and me. Every summer, kids around the country attend summer camp. There are camps for every type of child, including sports, drama, art, and science. There are even camps for kids with disabilities and chronic illnesses. A place where they feel a little less conspicuous regarding their medical needs. These camps allow kids to be in a safe, supportive and tolerant environment where their medical needs don't set them apart. Mia is excited about spending another summer at Camp Big Pine. This is her third summer, and, now that she's 13, Mia's in the 'big girls' cabin. But Mia's also a little nervous. Camp Big Pine is full of kids with different abilities and illnesses. This year, Mia's coming with a new diagnosis, a new food restriction and a new mobility aid. Mia now walks with crutches, something she didn't have last summer. She's also been diagnosed with Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome (POTS) and has also been told she is to avoid cheese. Cheese! Her favourite food! How will she survive? Alex doesn't belong at Camp Big Pine. It's a camp for kids with disabilities who are in wheelchairs and on crutches and stuff like that. Alex doesn't have a disability. Alex has Type 1 Diabetes, and that's not a disability. It just means she has to be careful about what she eats, ensure she takes insulin every time, and ensure she knows how to check if her sugar is too high or too low and how to treat that. That's not a disability. Alex doesn't want to be at Camp Big Pine. And she will do her best to get kicked out and sent home if she doesn't run away first. Something happens that forces Mia and Alex to rely on each other. And the last thing Alex wants to do is rely on anyone. Can Alex help Mia see that her life really doesn't have to change as much as she thinks, even with new restrictions? Can Mia help Alex see that being different doesn't mean you're broken?

Vent Book by FlyingGiraffe0

nahwh i wanted to write some silly book about my struggles but ended up doing way worse shii sorry gang anyway cant talk to no one so talking to yaal :3 skibidi sigma Life is NOT skibidi sigma So it originally was meant to be for ed struggles but now its just my whole life basically all my problems. Sorry if it might be confusing TW: If you are in recovery, I strongly advise you not to read this book. It calls normal BMI "fat", mentions calories and weight and could be harmful towards your recovery. If you notice you relate to this book a lot, it's never late to ask for help. Please don't hesitate, there are many centres that can help you. Read this book with caution if you have an eating disorder. This book is mostly based off of my expiriences so it might be a bit corny or cringy but please try your best to be respectful towards the story cause most of it happened to me. But regardless, I wrote it so other people with eating disorders might find it relatable, so enjoy!

You may also like

Slide 1 of 10

Keep An Open Mind {Lynn Gunn} cover

Skinny Love.. cover

Falling Apart cover

New Beginnings (undergoing editing) cover

It was under control cover

Y/n Diaz, the new rookie cover

Different Doesn't Mean Broken cover

Vent Book cover

Keep An Open Mind {Lynn Gunn}

TW: this book may contain mentions of violence and of suicide. DISCLAIMER #1: I wrote this story when I was a teen and while some mental disorders are the focal point, they may not be accurate representations as I was far from being a psychologist. There are several things Lynn doesn't quite get about the world she lives in, which makes it harder for her to figure herself out. She is not your average teenager. She's young, intelligent, though something about her is off by now. Everyone is quick to misjudge and point fingers, everything and everyone is so corrupted that she's afraid she'll lose herself among a bunch of wandering, empty souls. Therapy can only help so much, depression is hard to die, and in Lynn's case it's caused solely by the fact she doesn't 'fit in'. She can't really find her place in the world. But there's something really special about her; Her dreams are haunted by a wonderful, mystical place. No one understands her, they think she's off her rocker, that she needs to cut her childish daydreams. But Lynn knows deep in her heart that place really exists, and she'll do anything to find it, with the help of some new found friends. There's only one thing she must do: Keep an open mind, it brings open hearts and open eyes. -- DISCLAIMER #2 This fanfiction is inspired to Mind Over Matter by Pvris and their lyrics in general. All you read here is fiction. every reference to real events or people is purely coincidental. I do not own the songs featured in the book. Credit to Pvris for the titles of the chapters. 2015 © Run-Dont-Walk