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My Beloved

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Parts 16
Time 1h 26m

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Dan has lived two-hundred and thirty-three lives, each one of them different but for one thing, or, rather, person: Phil Lester. the black haired acquaintance, lover, roommate, etc. that is a recurring piece in Dan's hell. Hell, because Dan has watched Phil die in his arms every. Single. Time.
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Speak up already - Phan by geniusotaku

Phil doesn't talks. Well, not anymore. The last time he said something, was when he didn't hate himself. And that was a long time ago. But now, everything is different. He must struggle with depression, whilst new boy Dan Howell desperately attempts to win him over. [Warning: this could be triggering at some points]

Jealous | Dan Howell by koalakuddlez

*complete* Rachel Alice, Phil Lester's best friend, is coming to visit him for the first time in two years. She'll also be meeting Phil's roommate, Dan, for the first time.

Hearts Beat~ PhilxReader by Dramatic_Unicorn

(Y/N) has been friends with the Lester family for years. At the funeral of your best friend, you finally meet him, Phil Lester. The one member of the Lester family you never met. Your parents persuade Phil to move into your flat because they are convinced that you are becoming depressed. You try your best to ignore him. He tries his best to try to make you happy. - *she/her pronouns are used in some chapters* - Gifs inspired by @Hanisnotonfire07

My Blood, Your Bones - Phan by SweetLittlePhangirl

Young Dan Howell, who lives with his alcoholic father, lost his mother to cancer less than a year ago, and is killing himself. Phil Lester, a boy picked on for his weight, lives alone from the rest of the world in a rehab center while trying to recover from severe anorexia. When a concerned teacher suggests Dan seek help, the two lonely worlds collide. Maybe all they need for help is each other. (Rating: Mature! Very angsty! Read at your own risk! Triggers: self harm, eating disorder, suicide. A little swearing. A little smutty, a little fluffy)

Eternally by AspenAmadiKare

(COMPLETE)Trigger Warning: Putting it right out there THIS WILL TRIGGER SOME PEOPLE. There is suicide/suicidal thoughts, self harm, and death. Rated R: Very Smutty. VERY. Dan loves phil, but Phil loves someone else. Can Dan get Phil to realize his love for him or not. And when he does will he be able to keep his love...

Insulted / Bullied By Dan and Phil by silencedteen

It all starts in the cold autumn of 2009, you're just fourteen years old. And you do not have a happy life, no you aren't just a little 'sad' about something. You are properly depressed, you hate life. Nobody is ever there for you, except for one person.. This person has a lot of problems of their own, their life is just as bad as yours. They often have to stay off school, leaving you alone. It's true, you're bullied. By the two best friends Daniel Howell and Phillip Lester. You hate them, little bastards. But just eight years later a lot of things had changed.

A day in the clouds by Rekindledlove

Dan Howell suffers from schizophrenia. The voices in his head tell him to do horrible things to himself and others, but the only thing grounding him to earth is the clouds in the sky. Phil Lester has sever depression and is struggling to keep going each day. All his life he had been a mer shell of a man. When they meet one day by fate, how will it all play out?

Moving ~ PHAN by krysiice

When Dan start school in a new place, he and Phil become friends fast. But what happens when things become to much? What happens when the only relief seems to be in harming? What happens when they start catching feelings for one another? But what happens when what Dan's been forced to do his whole life, emerges again, threatening to possibly separate them forever, especially when they need the other the most? *Contains: -fluff, smut -descriptive issues such as: self harm, abuse, suicidal thoughts PLEASE DO NOT READ IF YOU ARE EASILY TRIGGERED BY THESE THINGS stay safe *hugs*

Smile, Dan by kittylover573ds

DISCLAIMER: This story is mature because it will have some self harm in it. It will also have some swearing due to that's how Dan actually talks. This is not about Phan being real. I'm sorry to disappoint you. Now onto what it is really about: Dan Howell is becoming more and more depressed. His family, his community, not even his best friend, Phil Lester, can help him. He believes he's a lost cause, and he's a mistake. He tries to hide it best he can, but some nights, it's just too much. During this, he's lost his will to smile. He'll fake smiles for videos and pictures, but he's lost a reason to genuinely smile.

With You by phan_of_howell

Dan is a depressed suicidal kid with no friends what so ever in till he meets this dork named Phil

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My Blood, Your Bones - Phan cover

Eternally cover

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A day in the clouds cover

Moving ~ PHAN cover

Smile, Dan cover

Speak up already - Phan

Phil doesn't talks. Well, not anymore. The last time he said something, was when he didn't hate himself. And that was a long time ago. But now, everything is different. He must struggle with depression, whilst new boy Dan Howell desperately attempts to win him over. [Warning: this could be triggering at some points]