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My Beloved

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Dan has lived two-hundred and thirty-three lives, each one of them different but for one thing, or, rather, person: Phil Lester. the black haired acquaintance, lover, roommate, etc. that is a recurring piece in Dan's hell. Hell, because Dan has watched Phil die in his arms every. Single. Time.
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Bad Boys Don't Smile / phan by phanci

Phil Lester is sweet and cute; known for his kindness and enthusiasm. Dan Howell is a tough, cold outsider; known as the school's stereotypical 'bad boy'. But if he's so bad, then why on earth did he rescue Phil Lester and give him a smile which would melt anyone's heart?

Speak up already - Phan by geniusotaku

Phil doesn't talks. Well, not anymore. The last time he said something, was when he didn't hate himself. And that was a long time ago. But now, everything is different. He must struggle with depression, whilst new boy Dan Howell desperately attempts to win him over. [Warning: this could be triggering at some points]

Alone Together by DavineNaughter

Phil's life is awful. Bullied, under appreciated, and friendless, he takes on life. One day there is a thought in his head that isn't his. He didn't think it. He soon discovers that it was someone else, and that person is alone too. Despite not knowing who the other is, or even if one of them just went crazy and is imagining a voice in his head, they decide to be alone together.

If I Knew Then (Phan) by ToriDreamsOfTomorrow

**Trigger Warning: Self Harm, Abuse, Alcoholism** Dan Howell and Phil Lester never got along. Mostly because Dan took out his horrid home life on the people at school and Phil happened to be an easy target. But when things take a turn for the worse in both of their lives, they're forced to get to know each other better and discover things about themselves they never guessed.

Moving ~ PHAN by krysiice

When Dan start school in a new place, he and Phil become friends fast. But what happens when things become to much? What happens when the only relief seems to be in harming? What happens when they start catching feelings for one another? But what happens when what Dan's been forced to do his whole life, emerges again, threatening to possibly separate them forever, especially when they need the other the most? *Contains: -fluff, smut -descriptive issues such as: self harm, abuse, suicidal thoughts PLEASE DO NOT READ IF YOU ARE EASILY TRIGGERED BY THESE THINGS stay safe *hugs*

But he's my best friend? -Phan by Phangirlingx

Dan and Phil have been best friends and room-mates for many years now. Although openly shipped by many people, 'phan' are just platonic. Or are they? When both parties start to question how they really feel for each other, will it end happily? Or will it end up ruining their friendship that they both cherish so dearly? Contains no self-harm/depression. Smut warnings are shown before reading :) x

deranged | phan by phanlusions

completed~~ Dan Howell is admitted into the Manchester Eye Mental Hospital after his attempted suicide. He gets roomed with a boy named Phil Lester, but he doesn't talk much. Not at all actually. Dan decides to make it his personal mission to make Phil talk, but focusing on someone all the time can make you lose yourself. ------------------------------------------ mentions of self harm, suicide, multiple mental illnesses, etc ------------------------------------------ deranged (a.) mad; insane

True Love Always Finds Its Way // Phan by sofiaa720

What do you do when you've been in love with your best friend for years, but you're too afraid to confess? Dan Howell has been torturing himself internally, but when he finally gets the courage to tell Phil Lester about his undying love, he gets the shock of his life. Find out if Dan ever gets through this seemingly dreadful nightmare, and if true love truly is real. *Please vote and comment! This is my first story and it would mean the world!*

Smile, Dan by kittylover573ds

DISCLAIMER: This story is mature because it will have some self harm in it. It will also have some swearing due to that's how Dan actually talks. This is not about Phan being real. I'm sorry to disappoint you. Now onto what it is really about: Dan Howell is becoming more and more depressed. His family, his community, not even his best friend, Phil Lester, can help him. He believes he's a lost cause, and he's a mistake. He tries to hide it best he can, but some nights, it's just too much. During this, he's lost his will to smile. He'll fake smiles for videos and pictures, but he's lost a reason to genuinely smile.

Brotherly love (phan) by phanallamallama

Phil is an orphan, bullied, and living alone with no friends in a home. He does his best not to let that fact that no one seems to care about him get to him, but it's getting harder. Then a nice couple start to take interest in him, and it turns out they have a son his age, Daniel, but the love they begin to share isn't of a brotherly nature...

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Bad Boys Don't Smile / phan cover

Speak up already - Phan cover

Alone Together cover

If I Knew Then (Phan) cover

Moving ~ PHAN cover

But he's my best friend? -Phan cover

deranged | phan cover

True Love Always Finds Its Way // Phan cover

Smile, Dan cover

Brotherly love (phan) cover

Bad Boys Don't Smile / phan

Phil Lester is sweet and cute; known for his kindness and enthusiasm. Dan Howell is a tough, cold outsider; known as the school's stereotypical 'bad boy'. But if he's so bad, then why on earth did he rescue Phil Lester and give him a smile which would melt anyone's heart?