The Pain...

This is a sad romance book, and my first book. leave honest reviews thanks trigger warnings: schizophrenia, (things that aren't there and etc) suicidal thoughts, depression, death, grieving, and neglect.

the unedited, discontinued shit i wanted to complete and show you all as my first finished novel. but, alas. contains LOTS of triggering shits, so please, please be very careful and sure that you have no triggers before reading this. there are no phobia triggers (i am pretty sure). welcome to me narrating my life through another person, because that is what i do.

this is my first book ever so sorry if its bad.

I used to think there'd be no living without you. Then, you walked away. Like it was the easiest thing in the world. We finally stopped making sense to you. So, you left. Why wouldn't you. It didn't matter that it still made sense to me. That I still held on to all those what ifs and unanswered questions of us. Still hoped for things to work out somehow. Still needed things to work out. Needed it like food and water. This story might not make much sense to you, reader. It was written for him. And in many ways for myself. But I am grateful for your desire to explore our life's tale non the less. It was quite something. I hope you'll get something out of it.

This story is one of my first attempts at a novel. Hope you enjoy :)

This is a collection of my original poems. They contain ideas and laments about love, pain, self harm/hate, suicide, mental illness, and more. ***TRIGGER WARNING*** when *** shows up beware of that piece

This is my poetry/ventings/stuff My poetry is basically inspired by many things, such as songs and feelings and dreams but mainly about my ex-lover... Every thought is about him. So... This is for my lover. I love you.

this story is for anyone who wanta to read it... it might be a trigger warning to some sensitive people. I'm sensitive. this is my life. it may spund like drama... but its all true. This is my life in the form of poems. Heart felt meaningful poems. If u want to think I'm crazy go for it... Here we go

Dear Carson, do you ever think about me? Do you ever miss me? When you hear our song, does it make your heart ache? Or does it remind you of us? Or do you still not care? You hurt me. You really did. You still do. I don't thinks you realize the pain you have put me through. And, still do. I cared, and you didn't. I loved you. But that wasn't good enough. I handed you my heart, and you took it, and crushed into a million little pieces. You didn't mean it when you said you loved me. You liar. Heart breaker. Cheater. Charmer... You called me PrincessHeaven.. And I called you my Prince. You gave me that cute little lock, and you kept the tiny silver key in your phone case. You gave me so much to love, and so much to remember. Dear Carson, I still love you.

WARNING: Some pieces may contain triggers for those who struggle with any form of depression or self harm. Please read with caution. I will often rearrange the chapters in the way I see fit, so please be patient and keep that in mind. This is my first attempt at poetry. It will consist of shit that I've gone through/dealt with and ramblings from my screwed up mind. These works are purely fictional and not meant to be taken literally.