The Art of Feeling Too Much
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TW: Abuse, negative self talk, self harm, food disorders, suicide, anxiety/panic attacks
Collection of poems about the experiences of my life: both highs and lows. Living with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) isn't pretty. It isn't romantic. It isn't easy. It is hard. Some days are better than others. Some days are horrendous. One hour is fine, the next hour I am on a rampage.
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