Don't Judge Me (Being Edited)

Ok. So this is everything. I'm writing it all down because I have to. I hear it helps. Maybe I'll burn this afterwards; I don't want it getting out or anything. But I have to do something with all the words and sounds and pictures that whirl around in my head every time I close my eyes. I just have to. So just hear me out, just let me write and don't judge me, don't hate me, don't be human. Be a book. Be something I can speak to without feeling as though you'll tell on me. You're all I have now, so be a book and don't do any personification shit on me and I won't wimp out on you. Have we got that clear? Ok. Deal. So here it is. Everything.