What the Hell? Why is my life such a train wreck, and a disaster? I try to make it seem like nothing bad ever happened... That my mom didn't run out on me, or that my dad wasn't so upset about my mom to make me live with my grandparents... I seriously try not to care! Take 100 and subtract 100! That's how many fucks I try to give about my life! I don't do drugs! I don't smoke... any more! And I'm still working on the drinking sadly. But other than that, I don't know why I only have a few friends! I seriously need to get a life... Or get in charge? Or learn a lesson? Maybe give one? Run away again? Get pregnant? Have a baby at 18? Or a puppy? With my mate? With somebody that isn't my mate? I have no fucking clue... Somebody help me before I flip out!!!
All you need Is love but sometimes love alone isn't enough
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I really don't remember the last time I was happy even my childhood memories I honestly don't remember having a bubbly childhood like any other kids ,my life has always been miserable and honestly learned how to adapt to that.
you honestly smile over something stupid , laugh over a cracked joke for a few minutes and there's that thing that triggers that you just had enough and you should stop and your mood just goes down and there's nothing to do about it. It's like the inner you always wakes up fucked up more than you are fucked up and tells you that you just sad and you gonna stay that way until you take out the anger on something or someone but you know what something always has to be the blade, permanent scars on how bad it was ,a daily reminder on how life is and how sadness over comes you at times actually not at times but everytime and on the someone part , you hurt people that honestly try to reach out to you and show you how much they care about you but you just had it with everyone and everything and you want no one caring about your feelings and giving a fuck about you because you can't reciprocate the feelings. You can't find yourself caring about anyone else but you but still can't care about yourself enough to feel safe or protected , he was the only one that made me feel alive and I lost him but what hurts more is losing someone and only realizing later what they meant to you.