WARNING MAY BE TRIGGER WARNINGS WILL LIST AT BEGINNING OF CHAPTERS. Kurt Hummel forces a smile. He doesn't remember the last time he smiled for real. His husband,Blaine, is the only reason he is alive. He does cut himself when Blaine is not home. Blaine Anderson loves his life. He has the man of his dreams a good job and amazing friends he couldn't have it another way. But he knows Kurt's hiding something. Kurt always wears long sleeves and sweat pants Blaine doesn't remember the last time they had sex and Kurt never gets naked except for being in the shower and Kurt cried for a whole hour because Blaine walked in the bathroom when he was taking a shower. Something Is Wrong.