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My Twisted Mind

Broken-Blackbird

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Reads 88
Votes 8
Parts 8
Time <5 mins

Broken-Blackbird

anxiety depression dissociation eatingdisorder ednos mpd osfed selfharm suicidal weightloss

**TRIGGER WARNING**
  Welcome to another broken journal of mine! For any of my long time readers, you may remember I had another journal at one time where I took you on a walk through the dark forest of my mind. Well, now it's time I take you on that walk again. If you do choose to read this, please be aware things may get dark and could possibly be triggering. You have been warned. Anywho, this will probably mostly be weight and personality stuff since those are the two things most active right now, but it may contain some other stuff relating to self harm and other possibly triggering things. Honestly, I see this as probably being a journal I use to focus a lot on my weight loss. Maybe it won't be all about that. Who knows. But if you don't care for my entries, please just don't read them. So welcome to my (new) broken journal! Enjoy?

*Note: I do not promote or glorify any of the things I deal with. They are hell. The only reason I seem comfortable with them is because once you're in hell for so long you get used to the heat.*All Rights Reserved

anxiety depression dissociation eatingdisorder ednos mpd osfed selfharm suicidal weightloss

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