The questioning series. The unexpected

What do yo do when everything you know changes in a flash. When right and wrong become so confusing you just want to run. Run far away from everything, the people you love the people who care. Huh, who do you chose the people you love or the people you just learned to love. What do you say to them when you've chosen. Or what do you do when your heart is burning with grief and confusion then happiness also joy. How do you know which one is real when both seem so so good and comforting. My parents did the most heroic act that I could ever see as I 14 year old girl. So did my brothers they took hold of something heading for doom and brought it to hope also joy. They took something meant for evil and God went into them filling them with the holy spirit. He helped them rise up and take control of what needed to be done. I wish they hadn't, I'd wish I would have taken their place and that God would have chosen me to do what needed to be done. ("I cry at night in sorrow in strangers home while I know my parents are at home. But some of me just dreams and wishes that my parents are alive, " I quote not from the book.