Keep the Door Shut

Sometimes I still feel you with your arms around me in my bed
I hear our song on the radio but it don't feel the same to me
When our friends talk about you, all it does is just tear me down
My heart breaks a little when I hear your name

I can't ever seem to move on from you
If you were still here with me,I'd want you to know
That I would've bought you the most beautiful and most expensive flowers
And held your hand as we walked in sink on this Earth
Share all my hours with you and you only
When I'm free my mind's in a daze
Take you to every party if I go
I remember how much you loved to dance
Now your dancing with the clouds
And I'm just another broken man

My pride, my ego, my needs, and my selfish ways
Caused a good strong husband like you to walk out my life
Now I never, never get to clean up the mess I made
And it haunts me every time I close my eyes and I can still hear your voice

It all just sounds like my tears as I rain you a river
I shouldn't have been so selfish
That I should've bought you a ring
And held your hand more tightly as if I was going to lose you
Should've showed you all my love
When I had the chance
Take you to every party and make you happy
As our hearts begin to dance
Now I'm dancing with my emotions
And your dancing with a sweet melody in the clouds

Although it hurts,
I'll try to move on.
I know I'm probably much too late
To try and apologize for my mistakes
But I just want you to know

I covered your grave in many vibrant flowers
I still miss holding your hand
Give up all my hours​
To have a chance to be with you again
It'll be one big party
I remember how much we loved to dance
Do all the things that we did
If I can be with you again
Do all the things I should've done
Along time ago

(Warning: depression and boyxboy in this story)