Hitting Rock Bottom

You're a mess
Your crazy
You're no good
You have no manners
You're an ass
But god damn your hot
But I still have a gun
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"I love you and I cant stop loving you because after all we've been through together, I couldn't imagine myself with anyone else! And it's because I love you that I cant be selfish with you! You may think this is all a joke, A prank, but I have never felt this way towards someone this much! If you really think this is all a lie... I can prove it, I can prove that I love you and I can prove that i'm IN love with you because after this we may not be with each other again and I want to remember every little detail like, How your smile can make someone go weak, How you can make any man propose to you in a second, How when someone looks at you the wrong way you wouldn't hesitate to murder them, How even when your crying your absolutely gorgeous. You may not see it but you are beautiful in every single way! And I want you in my life, I want to see your face when I wake up and I want to watch our kids grow up and we grow old together and get married because I love you!" The vulnerability in his voice, The blush on my cheeks, The sound of our hearts beating. But maybe this is too much, But maybe this is just enough. I hold onto him, tight. And I wait to wake up from this amazing dream.....
Wanna know the scary part...

I don't wake up... Because its not a dream...