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Complete, First published Oct 07, 2017
Evelyn Reyes is the girl with chronic anxiety. Her stomach knots, insomnia, pounding headache, her disastrous thoughts and anxiety attacks had made her into a pathetic excuse of whom she was before. But is having anxiety the end of the world? Mason Stewart doesn't think so.

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Evelyn is the new girl of Gateway High where she wants to finish her senior year without making herself vulnerable, keeping her anxiety and craziness a secret and without falling in love. That is a must. When she has Mason Stewart as her locker mate, the guy who has insanely blue eyes and loves to scowl at her, she thinks it will not be that hard to cope here. But after having a panic attack right in his arms, tables turn for Evelyn. Mason Stewart's scowls turn into dimply smiles, his rough voice turns sweet, and his strong arms become a shelter, his insane blue eyes become an ocean where Evelyn wants to drown.

But when her anxiety disorder makes her believe everything comes with a price, Evelyn knows the price she has to pay.

Completed.

"I literally whizzed through the chapters. It's so perfect and amazing wow i just can't express how awesome it is. It's so captivating like I couldn't stop reading once I started. It's absolutely terrific man. I can't emphasize how perfectly written it is. Wow. This is hands down one of the best books I've ever read."- @GoFigure0


"This book has portrayed anxiety better than any of the book I have read including published books. I hope you keep writing" - @TheLast_Unicorn 


"WOW IT WAS SO GOOD YOU ARE WRITING GOD. I WOULD DIE FOR MASON AND EVELYN. " - @furbyspit

"Girl you pulled at my heart strings. You have so much power over my emotions like damn! Honestly you are talented and I look forward to reading some more of your work."- @campers2004 


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#1 in Youngadultreads
#1 in Psychology
#1 in Romcom
#1 in Sarcasm
#1 in Mentalhealth
#1 in Stopmentalhealthstigma
#1 in NewYork
#1 in judgemental
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Beneath It All

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And then he stopped. Shane leaned his forehead against mine, breathing heavily, our eyes still closed, and he tucked a strand of hair behind my ear. "Astra," he mumbled against my lips. "Please don't hurt yourself." And all at once, his body fell limp and Shane Doughtry, the captain and star player of the soccer team, collapsed. ✧⁠*⁠。✧⁠*⁠。 There are two sides to every story. High schooler Astra Thatcher is the quiet girl in the corner of the room with her music on max and ink all over her hands. She was the quiet, intelligent kid who ate lunch by herself. But inside that calm exterior she was filled with turmoil- about her life. Popular, sarcastic, funny Shane Doughtry who was always the center of attention had been in her class for years and yet never noticed her- until they were trapped in an elevator together. He's never noticed her and she's never noticed him. That was the way it was - that was the way it was always supposed to be. Their lives soon become a tangled mess of love, friendship and trust. One stormy night changes everything between them as the two are drawn closer together and they learn that everything about them that people see was just a mask. To cover up the pain underneath. ⚠️TW - contains mature themes relating to mental health and suicide. and weird chapter names. All right reserved © Crazy_Cranks P.S. I'd just like to say this is the first full novel I've ever written, when I was around 14/15 years old, so yes, there will be grammar mistakes and plot holes! And bear with me, I SWEAR THE WRITING GETS BETTER ༎ຶ⁠‿⁠༎ຶ (Day I wrote the first word) Start. 14.02.2022 End. 01.01.24 #1 in classclown #1 in awareness #1 in elevator #15 in sad #14 in depression #6 in humor #9 in mentalhealth