So Close To Real

*Everyone has someone made for them, what if yours were dead?* "Do you ever just want die, disappearances, and plunge into a world of unknown?" Jasmine asked with uncertainty. I stare at her, the words floating in the air as I pause to think. I prompt up on my shoulder and turn to the sky, my nose lined with the sun's light. "You mean-Suicide?" She nods her head slightly, with her mouth shut waiting for my response. "No, because I already have enough pain inside me, and I don't want to hurt myself even more, and every time I think of that- I think of those last five seconds I'm still alive and imagine the pain- the death. Its shows that I am weak, and that life had won."