Dear Motherfuckin' Diary

Have you ever been so phenomenally terrified right to your fragile bones and out your skin that you were barely even scared anymore? Have you ever been so furious your blood flash-boiled, and it seemed still in the same way molten rock seems unthreatening? Have you ever been so sad that your entire body ached, like you 've just ran longer than you ever have before and you're not even close to where you need to be, still? Have you ever failed so monumentally that you thought: this is it, it's all over, I just ruined everything good and dear and important?
Welcome to my life. It's (I'm) kind of a catastrophe.