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Looking For Self

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Cassie never knew what love was. 
If somebody asked her, what is love? She would fall silent, and then shook her head. Or maybe she would make bad jokes in order to change the topic.
Because, she really didn't understand.

They said love makes you happy, makes you will do anything for it. 
They said love will change your life, like everything doesn't matter anymore. Like you will be mad for it, crazy for it.
She never experienced it even once. Love also something that she couldn't find between her parents.

When she was in high school, she had dated several times.
Mostly she dated them because they were handsome, or some because her friends told her so. 
But she felt nothing. She couldn't find 'anything' there.

She thought maybe something wrong with her. Maybe her heart was too cold and hard as a rock. Make anyone not only could not approach but also could not crack her heart.
Maybe she was too haughty, too accustomed in enjoying her solitude that she forgot to share a little of her life with anyone

And then he came, overturned her life...

He was warm, he was bright
Like a glimmer of sunlight peeping through the window curtains
He made her laugh, turned her black and white world into colorful one
He never got tired even though she was cold and ignorant

With him she overjoyed
He was always there, in every second, and every breath
He squeezed her hands, strengthening,
Hug her, soothing,
Beside her, listening

He was like nicotine, made her crave more and more
Flowed in the veins, and throbbing along with her pulse

Until he was gone
Too sudden like a slap, like a heart attack
Left her with no option than, her collapsed world and bleeding heart.All Rights Reserved

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Love Never Gives Up (Changed) 1 by someoneyoulove31

When Lisa Winters gets into a car accident, because of her fucked-up mother; her whole world flips upside down. When Lisa and Chase finally admit their true feelings for each other after years of being best friends. Lisa screws up and makes a mess she can't ever get out of. Will Chase and Lisa's relationship last, or will it be gone just like that? Lisa doesn't know what to do with herself anymore. Her relationship with Chase isn't the same as it was two years ago. She loves Chase so much, but yet she can't deal with the pain and the heartache anymore. After a horrible incident with Lisa and Chase, she starts to pull herself away from Chase, she starts to hang out with her new friend Jake. But the more time she spends with Jake, the more her feelings grow for him also. Sooner or later she can't help herself and she tells Jake how she feels for him. Finally, after almost three years of Lisa and Chase being together, Lisa is finally letting go. While dealing with the breakup, Jake is right by Lisa's side through the struggles. Sooner or later Chase begs Lisa for another chance, she is a different person now and she won't let him hurt her again. She's done with being not good enough for anybody, especially someone who hurt her that bad for so many years. But yet not all stories have a happy ending.

My Ruin by KayliaP

I tried touching him, but he stiffened from my touch. I stepped away from him and now my back was facing him. "Why?," I questioned. "I have my reasons," he retorted. "Why won't you let me touch you?," I insisted turning around to face him. "It's just the way things are. You just can't," he stated stubbornly. He stared back at me with those cold, harsh eyes that I couldn't bare any longer. I could feel the tears starting to form and I didn't want to let them fall. I was not going to let him see how weak I was. "Do you even love me?," I countered. "Ashanti, I told you I can't love. I'm incapable of loving you or anyone else," he says staring me in my eyes. "I'm going to get my clothes and go," I said numbly. Before I could move an inch, my back was crushed against the cold, hard surface of a wall. I looked up into Lamonte's eyes as he whispered, "You're mine. You're not leaving you can't leave." "You can't love me. Why would I stay?," I breathed. A love story that is beyond different. What was it about about Lamonte King that keeps her with him? She is breaking him and what will happen when he finally cracks? She will become his ruin. As he will become hers. PLEASE BE ADVISED: Some topics covered in this story may be triggering for many different reasons. This will be the only warning given moving forward. Read at your own risk!

My New Muse (XXX) (Completed) by AliyahEzinma

This book is rated R. Please proceed with caution. This is the more raunchy version of the book. *** We stand in silence, as I sip my water, and he watches me do it. Finally, he breaks the silence. "I'm sorry if I... offended you by sleeping in your bed last night. This morning. Whatever." "It's fine. You didn't do anything." He nods, his eyes far away, as if thinking of how to word his views. "I didn't do anything... but I wanted to. I wanted to so badly." I nearly choke on my water. I don't know what's worse; his confession, or how nonchalantly he says it, as if he's reading the weather. "Come again?" I say, thinking that I must have heard him wrong. He shrugs. "I want to f*ck you." Again, he is as nonchalant as ever. I just stare stupidly, my mouth agape. He closes my mouth, grinning at me, wicked intentions in his eyes. Not so nonchalant anymore, I see. "Um, I-I...I don't..." I stop talking, realising what a total idiot I sound like, while his grin broadens. In that second, I am grateful for my dark skin, as he can't see me blushing. "Tongue-tied?" My cheeks get hotter. "Shut the f*ck up." He actually laughs. "Don't worry, honey," he says, his hot breath brushing against my face, shocking me. When did he get this close? "One day," he whispers, now in my ear,"I will f*ck you." I realise that my eyes are closed and I open them. He's gone. I stand there frozen, in total shock. What the actual f*ck just happened? *** When all you know is disappointment, you become your own best friend. You isolate yourself from everyone else. You need no one; love is a weakness. That's the case with me. Then, Prince Charming rides in and changes everything. Except, he isn't a prince. He is light, but he holds darkness; he is joy, but he knows pain; he is beauty, but within him is imperfection and ugliness. He is just like me, but he is nothing like me.

~Trust Me ~ by insanelysane2552

"I want a divorce." And just hearing him say that my whole world that seemed to revolve around him stopped. Gathering myself I barely managed to speak in a voice that even I could not recognise. I couldn't comprehend anything going around me. "Wh..hy?" As soon as the words left my mouth he threw the file and the photographs spread across the floor. And those photographs had me in compromising positions with not one but several men. Looking at those photos I looked straight into his eyes. Disgust and hatred. The only emotions I could see. Taking a deep breath I composed myself and tried to keep my face void of the emotions I felt at that moment. Hurt and immense pain. If he didn't trust me then he has no right to see me vulnerable too. "Is this the only reason why you want to divorce me? No other except this?" It was foolish of me to ask him but I had to make sure. Also for me trust comes before love. If he doesn't trust me I don't even want to save the relationship. "Is this not enough you whore? What else can I expect from a slut and a gold digger like you! I knew it from the start that all you showed was just a facade. Your innocence, kindness, it was all fake. I just don't believe how can I be so dumb." Was I hurt? No I was broken beyond repair. My heart ached. I felt like I was seconds away from collapsing. I had far exceeded the limit of hurt and pain. I was so powerless in that moment that I couldn't even fight with him. Love makes you strong. I have heard and felt that countless times but they always forget to mention what comes after that. Love makes you weak too. I couldn't shout at him because I loved him. But I had to be brave. For myself. ************************************************** Is love enough for two people to be together or is there something more important than love? This is story of Xander and Sophie who loved each other but still couldn't be together. Because more important than love is trust. © All rights reserved

No Broken-hearted girl (Crushing Hard Series Book 2) by nokxygirl

Dear: Diary 02/04/2013 Then Kevin smiled at me. And I felt my heart beat for the first time in a very long time. All he did was smile, and suddenly this very dead heart of mine started beating very fast. The beating was so loud, I felt it ringing in my ears, and reverberating all over my body. His eyes bore into me, and I felt my cheeks heat up. Everything faded around me, I forgot that I was in class, and that there was a lecturer infront prattling on about Business Management. Everyone just ceased to exist. I don't know what it was about him, he wasn't the most handsome guy I'd ever seen, he wasn't the best dressed, but it was the confidence in his smile. His lips had curved into a closed lip smile that spoke so many things. I don't know what it was saying, but it was saying something and I had a feeling that he knew that his smile was bringing this girl back to life. I felt the inkling of a spark of attraction(okay, it wasn't an inkling, it was a whole lot of attraction), my back straightened and my body quivered with excitement. No, Diary! Not THAT kind of excitement, I mean the kind of excitement you feel when there's someone you know could be watching you and when there's someone new to crush on. I'd been floating around for so long, trying to avoid feeling anything because I didn't want to deal with the heartache of losing Scott and now on a random Tuesday afternoon, I was slammed back down to earth and I was suddenly experiencing all sorts of emotions. And then one thing became crystal clear... I was broken-hearted girl no more.

Is it true love or heart break (completed) by FeliciaValdez

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Seasons of Us by ShreyaAf

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After the storm [Finished] by NathLeeSeo

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Love Never Gives Up (Changed) 1

When Lisa Winters gets into a car accident, because of her fucked-up mother; her whole world flips upside down. When Lisa and Chase finally admit their true feelings for each other after years of being best friends. Lisa screws up and makes a mess she can't ever get out of. Will Chase and Lisa's relationship last, or will it be gone just like that? Lisa doesn't know what to do with herself anymore. Her relationship with Chase isn't the same as it was two years ago. She loves Chase so much, but yet she can't deal with the pain and the heartache anymore. After a horrible incident with Lisa and Chase, she starts to pull herself away from Chase, she starts to hang out with her new friend Jake. But the more time she spends with Jake, the more her feelings grow for him also. Sooner or later she can't help herself and she tells Jake how she feels for him. Finally, after almost three years of Lisa and Chase being together, Lisa is finally letting go. While dealing with the breakup, Jake is right by Lisa's side through the struggles. Sooner or later Chase begs Lisa for another chance, she is a different person now and she won't let him hurt her again. She's done with being not good enough for anybody, especially someone who hurt her that bad for so many years. But yet not all stories have a happy ending.