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Looking For Self

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Cassie never knew what love was. 
If somebody asked her, what is love? She would fall silent, and then shook her head. Or maybe she would make bad jokes in order to change the topic.
Because, she really didn't understand.

They said love makes you happy, makes you will do anything for it. 
They said love will change your life, like everything doesn't matter anymore. Like you will be mad for it, crazy for it.
She never experienced it even once. Love also something that she couldn't find between her parents.

When she was in high school, she had dated several times.
Mostly she dated them because they were handsome, or some because her friends told her so. 
But she felt nothing. She couldn't find 'anything' there.

She thought maybe something wrong with her. Maybe her heart was too cold and hard as a rock. Make anyone not only could not approach but also could not crack her heart.
Maybe she was too haughty, too accustomed in enjoying her solitude that she forgot to share a little of her life with anyone

And then he came, overturned her life...

He was warm, he was bright
Like a glimmer of sunlight peeping through the window curtains
He made her laugh, turned her black and white world into colorful one
He never got tired even though she was cold and ignorant

With him she overjoyed
He was always there, in every second, and every breath
He squeezed her hands, strengthening,
Hug her, soothing,
Beside her, listening

He was like nicotine, made her crave more and more
Flowed in the veins, and throbbing along with her pulse

Until he was gone
Too sudden like a slap, like a heart attack
Left her with no option than, her collapsed world and bleeding heart.All Rights Reserved

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Love Never Gives Up (Changed) 1 by someoneyoulove31

When Lisa Winters gets into a car accident, because of her fucked-up mother; her whole world flips upside down. When Lisa and Chase finally admit their true feelings for each other after years of being best friends. Lisa screws up and makes a mess she can't ever get out of. Will Chase and Lisa's relationship last, or will it be gone just like that? Lisa doesn't know what to do with herself anymore. Her relationship with Chase isn't the same as it was two years ago. She loves Chase so much, but yet she can't deal with the pain and the heartache anymore. After a horrible incident with Lisa and Chase, she starts to pull herself away from Chase, she starts to hang out with her new friend Jake. But the more time she spends with Jake, the more her feelings grow for him also. Sooner or later she can't help herself and she tells Jake how she feels for him. Finally, after almost three years of Lisa and Chase being together, Lisa is finally letting go. While dealing with the breakup, Jake is right by Lisa's side through the struggles. Sooner or later Chase begs Lisa for another chance, she is a different person now and she won't let him hurt her again. She's done with being not good enough for anybody, especially someone who hurt her that bad for so many years. But yet not all stories have a happy ending.

My New Muse (XXX) (Completed) by AliyahEzinma

This book is rated R. Please proceed with caution. This is the more raunchy version of the book. *** We stand in silence, as I sip my water, and he watches me do it. Finally, he breaks the silence. "I'm sorry if I... offended you by sleeping in your bed last night. This morning. Whatever." "It's fine. You didn't do anything." He nods, his eyes far away, as if thinking of how to word his views. "I didn't do anything... but I wanted to. I wanted to so badly." I nearly choke on my water. I don't know what's worse; his confession, or how nonchalantly he says it, as if he's reading the weather. "Come again?" I say, thinking that I must have heard him wrong. He shrugs. "I want to f*ck you." Again, he is as nonchalant as ever. I just stare stupidly, my mouth agape. He closes my mouth, grinning at me, wicked intentions in his eyes. Not so nonchalant anymore, I see. "Um, I-I...I don't..." I stop talking, realising what a total idiot I sound like, while his grin broadens. In that second, I am grateful for my dark skin, as he can't see me blushing. "Tongue-tied?" My cheeks get hotter. "Shut the f*ck up." He actually laughs. "Don't worry, honey," he says, his hot breath brushing against my face, shocking me. When did he get this close? "One day," he whispers, now in my ear,"I will f*ck you." I realise that my eyes are closed and I open them. He's gone. I stand there frozen, in total shock. What the actual f*ck just happened? *** When all you know is disappointment, you become your own best friend. You isolate yourself from everyone else. You need no one; love is a weakness. That's the case with me. Then, Prince Charming rides in and changes everything. Except, he isn't a prince. He is light, but he holds darkness; he is joy, but he knows pain; he is beauty, but within him is imperfection and ugliness. He is just like me, but he is nothing like me.

2:29 AM by RoseAndBone

"Okay, you know what? You're such a jackass and I never should have kissed you," I say. Colton stands up. His green eyes are just as angry as mine are. "Then why did you?" he asks. "I don't know!" I yell. "Why did you kiss me back?" "Hey, you kissed me," Colton says. "We already established that! God! It's like talking to a wall. Whatever I say just fucking bounces right off of you!" I yell. "Do you have any idea how maddening you are?" Colton looks at me. "You don't think you're infuriating?" Colton asks. I narrow my eyes. He starts to walk towards the door. I grab the M&M's and chuck them at Colton. He whips around, his eyes blazing green. "Where the fuck are you going? We're talking!" I yell, crossing my arms. He rubs the back of his neck where the M&M's hit him. "You wanna talk? Fine. Let's talk," Colton says. "You're obviously messed up from all of the shit your mom did." "Maybe I am! It's not your fucking business!" I pause. "Why do you even care? You're just some manwhore, right? A fuckboy?" Colton laughs dryly. "Is that what you think I am?" he asks. He takes a step closer to me. I'm two seconds away from kissing him again. Andy Reed-Collins has never fit in. With both of her parents being doctors, she's grown up in the hospital and has more friends there than she does at her high school. She's made it through most of her Senior year when she meets Colton Samson. Colton's bad for for her in every way. He's a nortorious manwhore who uses girls. But, when they become Biology partners, everything changes for Andy. As she spends more time with Colton, she can't deny their growing attraction to each other. The harder she tries to resist it, the more she's drawn to him. With his endlessly green eyes and knowing smirk, Colton sees through all of her walls. But just as Andy and Colton find each other, he turns out to be nowhere near perfect as he seems. Something's standing between her and Colton, and she's left with a choice. Will she choose him?

shattered vows. by shiraaa_wixrd

y/n gave him, taehyung her heart, and he broke it without a second thought. Years later, she's no longer the woman he left behind. Now, she's powerful, confident, and a force to be reckoned with-a woman who owns the room the moment she walks in. When fate brings them back together for a business deal, old wounds resurface, and shocking truths come to light-including the existence of a son taehyung never knew he had. Will her strength and his regret be enough to mend what was shattered? Or are some mistakes unforgivable?" "He looked at her with regret in his eyes. 'I never wanted to lose you,' he whispered, his voice raw with emotion. She took a deep breath, the weight of years between them. 'You never cared enough to keep me.' 'I was a fool,' he admitted, his gaze softening. 'But I've changed. I've built something... and it's nothing without you in it.' Her heart raced, but she held her ground. 'You think that now, after everything? After you shattered my trust?' He stepped closer, his voice pleading, 'I know I can't undo the past. But can we start over? For him... for us?' Her eyes flickered, the silent years of heartbreak and healing in her gaze. 'Maybe. But it'll take more than words to fix what's been broken.'"

What A Tease [girlxgirl] by KayLitha

Cassandra - I've gone through life's ups and downs because of you. I've felt how crazy love can be with you. But I just can't get you off my mind. You've got a piece of me and honestly, my life would suck without you. Alice - I let you go once. I won't let go anymore. All these mixed signals? They're all your unsaid feelings. You're still there, hurting yourself with her. But I'll wait, and I'll be your crying shoulder. I'll be love's suicide. Rebecca - I had lost you once. But you came back to me. Holding you now, feels like a mistery. How can I have you again? How can you still love me after all I let you went through? But now, the only thing I know is that I will do my best to cherish you forever, and never hurt you anymore. When life gives you back what you've lost, how will you take it? Cass had it all. Money, good grades, popularity, friends, She was on top of the world. And she threw it all. Alice, being a little girl, couldn't understand why or what had happened. All she knew was Cass was hurt and She wanted Cass to be happy again. So she did whatever she could to help out of love, only to have Cass walked out. Rebecca didn't have a choice. She couldn't have given her burden to the woman she loves tenderly. She was afraid that Cass would have left her if she had known. So she had to endure everything until she exploded. After almost 4 years, Cass is now back in town. Alice falls deeper in love with her, as Cass has a little crush on her. She thought this time, it will all go well. She would be dating Alice and everything's going to be fine. But when she met Rebecca, and saw that she still loves her, everything got way more complicated than before.

His Path Of Redemption by Manhattanwannabe

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My Ruin by KayliaP

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Hunter & Julie by Fucking_Trevor

- Somebody stole my car radio So now I just sit in silence. -Completed 11/8/16 -{Highest Rank: #28} You know, it's pretty fucking stupid that people say 'the broken cannot repair the broken' How do you expect a person who is whole to put someone else together? They don't understand. They don't have the pieces to do so. They haven't felt the agony of being alone. Now, if you take a person who is half and another who is half, it may cause cuts and pain but eventually, somehow they will be whole. And when this happens it will be beautiful, it will be pure. It will be real. But nothing real is perfect, and neither are they. Meet Hunter Black and his half, Julie Stone. Witness the ups and down of the beautiful pain. Witness the meaning of love. For no love was truer than the love of Hunter and his Julie. {Highest Rank: #28}

The Honest Liar by lylah_paige

He just stood there. Looking at me. The way I had reacted had put him in a state of shock. "I... I um," Every word I had learned from pre-school to now had just flew out of my mind and left me speechless. "I should go." I could tell he could barely hear the hurtful words I had just chocked out of my mouth, but I didn't care. Not anymore. I walked away. Fighting back tears. I drove all the way to my house and when I got there I fell against the cold wall. What had just happened? All I knew is that I wasn't able to think straight. My mind was clouded with memories of him. I shook my head trying to forget everything that was involved with him. But I wasn't able to forget. These thoughts were a part of me now. He was a part of me.

Day we met by Lazyish_ink

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Love Never Gives Up (Changed) 1

When Lisa Winters gets into a car accident, because of her fucked-up mother; her whole world flips upside down. When Lisa and Chase finally admit their true feelings for each other after years of being best friends. Lisa screws up and makes a mess she can't ever get out of. Will Chase and Lisa's relationship last, or will it be gone just like that? Lisa doesn't know what to do with herself anymore. Her relationship with Chase isn't the same as it was two years ago. She loves Chase so much, but yet she can't deal with the pain and the heartache anymore. After a horrible incident with Lisa and Chase, she starts to pull herself away from Chase, she starts to hang out with her new friend Jake. But the more time she spends with Jake, the more her feelings grow for him also. Sooner or later she can't help herself and she tells Jake how she feels for him. Finally, after almost three years of Lisa and Chase being together, Lisa is finally letting go. While dealing with the breakup, Jake is right by Lisa's side through the struggles. Sooner or later Chase begs Lisa for another chance, she is a different person now and she won't let him hurt her again. She's done with being not good enough for anybody, especially someone who hurt her that bad for so many years. But yet not all stories have a happy ending.