Yasmeen, what wrong dear? You don't look okay, my mum ask,sitting next to me as i shiver in fear and pain
He tou.. touch me, he touch me, i i beg him but he still hurt me, mummy please, please save me from him, promise me you won't allow him to hurt me again, mummy please, i said crying as i begged my mum cause she is the only one who can save me
Calm down Yasmeen. Who hurt you? i promise i will save you, she said
Da..
I hurt him, daddy said as he step inside looking drunk
Save me, please save me, i said hiding behind my mum as he step closer
Come here my little angel, come to daddy, daddy won't hurt you, come, he said dragging me out
Please let her go, she is just a child, don't hurt her please, mum said crying
Please don't hurt me, i will die, please don't hurt me, i said as he torn my cloth. Oh ya Allah, where are you? Come and save me, his hurting me i said shouting, wishing for a miracle to happen
I stare at him horrified. it couldn't happen my life was already ruined, and I don't want it to be ruined any further.
No! It can't happen!
I screamed in my head and clutched my head with both of my hands.
"No. I don't want this" I whisper shaking visibly.
"Adiba... please calm down... listen I want to tell you something.. just calm down" he tried to calm me down in a very gentle voice but how can I? did he forget what he did to me? if he then I will remind him.
I look up at him and wipe my tears furiously and clean my face. sighing I said.
"I want to abort" I exclaimed and his gentle face turned into his usually angry face.
"What the f*ck did you say?" he yelled and take step toward me. but I didn't flinch this time and matched his angry face with mine.
"I said I want to abort this sinful thing!" I screamed at top of my lungs.
"Shut the fu*k up, Adiba! this is not a thing and not sinful at all" he screamed back grabbing my both arms. and I gave him hateful glared
"It is! did you forget you RAPE me!" I screamed and he suddenly left my arms and hurt made its way to his eyes.
"Did you forget you RAPE a married woman" I yelled grabbing his collar.
"I didn't! But still, it's not a sinful thing Adiba... it's our... It's our halal child... Your my.. my WIFE Adiba!" He said his voice cracking and a lone tear escaped his eyes and I was staring at him like he lost his mind.
How can I be his wife? I am already married to someone else.
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