the perks of killing a mockingbird

I know we've never been the closest, but I think now's a better time than never to start. I know I've always kept a lot of secrets from you, and I guess it might have been just because I wanted to make you feel how I always felt about you when you would keep things from me, but I don't mind anymore. I just want someone to tell everything, and I hope that you'll understand, even though I know you've always been one of those people who don't really want to interfere in other people's lives, but I want you to know that I don't care if you interfere because I'm asking you to. I want you to know what's going on with me because I want at least one person to know what goes through my head, even if no one else does.

I guess I'll start off with a summary of several events because I didn't really notice how different it is without you until a few months in. Today's October 25, so I'll start the first entries on that day, but for the events before that, I'll just give it to you all at once, as I remember it. They'll probably be pretty short and there are quite a few, but it'll feel like less if you hear one segment at a time. Promise me you won't just skip through it, but that you'll actually listen because even though we never did much for each other except your several care packages with delicious home-baked goods, this is at least one thing you can do for me.
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Part one of an ongoing four part series.