color my heart//phan (discontinued)
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MatureOngoing10m
Last published Wed, Aug 15, 2018
Our hearts are like roses,
They are beautiful,
But once someone stops loving them,
They wilt away,
And all their color and beauty is gone.
Dan lost all the color he ever saw in the world when his ex, Damian, left him because he was, "tired of waiting around for him."
Phil has decided to help Dan see color again, but it's not always that easy without seeing the color in other people.
*tw//mentions of rape, self harm, and suicide*
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