I can't put my hands on it
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Ich mache Schluss.
Meine Mutter hat mich sehr gut auf die Liebe vorbereitet. Wie man eine Beziehung führt. Wie man sich Benimmt. Doch auf diese Situation hat sie mich nicht vorbereitet.
Die Welt war nicht mehr die selbe nach diesen 3 Worten. Alles was einem damals so einfach vorkam, wurde auf die Sekunde doppelt so schwer.
Der Schmerz in der Brust verging nicht, im Gegenteil er wurde mit jedem Tag stärker. Mein Drang nach Klarheit wuchs jeden Tag, jede Stunde, jede Minute, jede Sekunde. Jeden kleinen Fehler den ich einst machte, besserte ich aus. Doch jede Sekunde, Minute, Stunde..war sie in meinen Gedanken.
Ich kann einfach nicht los lassen. Dafür bin ich noch nicht bereit.
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