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Suicidal~ Phan

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Reads 12,219
Votes 1,179
Parts 160
Time 2h 47m

BrendonsUrieFury

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I can't breathe. It's the pills, I know it. And this time, he won't save me. He won't even notice until they announce my pitiful death to the school. 

But, who'd even care enough to speak my name? Who'd care enough to listen?

He's too happy. Too pure. 

Shit. There's the dots. 

"Goodbye, Phil..." as his name rolled off my tongue for the last time, I smiled. 

I'd be free soon.All Rights Reserved

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