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Suicidal~ Phan

BrendonsUrieFury

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Reads 12,372
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Parts 160
Time 2h 47m

BrendonsUrieFury

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I can't breathe. It's the pills, I know it. And this time, he won't save me. He won't even notice until they announce my pitiful death to the school. 

But, who'd even care enough to speak my name? Who'd care enough to listen?

He's too happy. Too pure. 

Shit. There's the dots. 

"Goodbye, Phil..." as his name rolled off my tongue for the last time, I smiled. 

I'd be free soon.All Rights Reserved

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He's Not Normal (Completed) by paper--doll

"why do you stare Death in the face as if he's a joke?" "maybe because he is." Psychotic!Dan x Innocent!Phil

Annoying sunshine // Phan {COMPLETED} by derailedphantrash

CONTAINS SELF HARM AND DEPRESSION Dan: the anti social kid at the back of the class , dressed in black lost in his own world . He has no friends , no family and he liked it that way . He had secrets , ones that he could never share unless psychiatric hospital sound good to you . Phil : the over enthusiastic new kid that's smiling though his pain . The boy that lost everything yet still fakes his smile . He looks like the sun yet feels like the dark sky yet know one will ever know . Phil doesn't have secrets but he has another person within himself , the true Phil , the one that wants to put a bullet in his head and die like the rest of his family seems to do yet this Phil is hidden under a mask of bright clothes and smiles . When Dan and Phil meet at the back of a class right in the very corner dans appearance reminds him of his true self , Phil reminds Dan about the old him the one before he lost hope . Dan hates Phil he's to happy and it sickens Dan . Phil is intrigued by Dan he's to mysterious and Phil loves it . They both have secrets and they both have issues . Will they end up bonding or colliding ?

Happily Ever After~ Phan by amembroffandonms

Life's not a fairy tale. >·< There never truly is a 'happily ever after' >·< Dan. He suffers from depression. He often feels there is nothing for him in this world. It's not that his home life is terrible. It's not that the kids beat him up at school. Those factors don't really bother him. It's simply the fact that no one cares. >·< Phil. He's like an angel on earth. Bright blue eyes. Giggly. Happy. Yet that doesn't apply to Dan. >·< What applies to Dan is that Phil saved him. What more could he ask for? And what can Phil provide for Dan? What humans need. Food Water Shelter And you never know... Maybe humans need love? >·<

Dan's Coma (phanfic) {COMPLETED} by sugaryyysweet

It all started when Dan and Phil finally confirmed they were a thing. Until someone made Dan try to commit suicide. Dan didn't die but he's in a coma. He survived, but things just got worse with him and Phil. Then things got better...then bad again. How will they cope with pain they have? Will Phil still love Dan the same? What has Dan come too? *trigger warning self harm and suicide* (kinda sad phanfic) Disclaimer: I WROTE THIS WHEN I WAS 13 AND ITS SO CRINGEY FORGIVE ME BUT THANKS FOR READING I GUESS

The Silent Host (boyxboy OHSHC) by LazyyOtaku

Cover by siimplyisaac Words. Everyone takes them for granted, using them non-stop, screaming them, laughing them, blurting them. But what about when they're dying? Are they strong enough to scream out their last words? To laugh out their final sentence? To blurt out the last thing people will remember of them? Your dying words mean everything. It's what people remember you saying last and it shouldn't be something stupid which if you get used to saying stupid things, I believe you won't have any control of what you say when you die. So words are valuable, and I, James Hunter, won't waste them. Of course I'll speak when it's important but I don't think I'll speak for anything other than that. But I'm dying and I don't want to be, but the choice isn't mine to make. My body- my heart has made up its mind, I'm going to die, I just have to accepting it. And if I'm going to die, I want to be remembered, I want them to visible see my face, feel my touch and hear my voice from my final hours of living. I want my family to know everything I've been holding in and I want my friends to remember me as strong. So what I'm going to die? Everyone does at one point. I'll just die sooner than expected and medication won't do anything to stop it, only postpone it and I don't want it postponed, when I'm ready... I'm ready and I want my heart to be on the same page as I am.

boy || phan by wreckthisphan

"I know we're young, but we have the kinda love that could last forever" in which Phil is selectively mute but Dan can't hear so that's okay March 19 2017 - January 30 2018 #890 in fanfiction

All My Fault (a Dan and Phil fan fiction) by Saffron123xx

After Phil moved out to be with his new girlfriend Dan has mostly given up on life. No one would ever love him. No one would ever care for him, not the same way Phil did. He can only recall their memories. But they are starting to fade, everything seems foggy in Dan's mind. Nothing is laid out for him. With all hope gone Dan makes some stupid decisions, one where he needs Phil. ***TW: this story contains love, swearing and attempts of suicide****

It just... happened? (boyxboy) by leaa4500

Before I knew it my shirt was torn away from my torso and tossed on the floor, Charlie's doing the same. Our kiss intensified and I felt him groan against my lips. I swear to god, this boy is making out with me like his life depends on it! And that's when reality punched me in the gut... the words 'this boy' kept running through my head over and over again until it got through the thick fog of vodlka and whatever else was in those stupid drinks. I, Ace Loughty, was kissing a guy. A fucking guy. A fucking straight guy named Charlie Simmons who of course had to be one of the most popular dickheads in Meadow Ridge High. I am so unbelievably fucked. ----- 17 year old Ace Loughty was never one longing to be in the spotlight. In fact, he craved the exact opposite: being left alone. When Ace was 13, the tragic death of his younger sister Eleanor caused him to rapidly gain popularity and pitiful looks. He hated the attention. All of a sudden everyone wanted to be friends with the dead girls brother, they'd promise Ace he would never be alone that they would always be there for him, which he of course knew was untrue, they're all just hungry for attention. Sometime later the school moved onto other drama and gossip, things started to die down and people finally left Ace alone. He moved on with his life, convincing himself he was over Eleanor's death and as quick as the whole thing started, he returned to being lonely, weird, quiet nobody Ace. Just how he liked it. That is until 4 years later when he found himself sprawled out on a bed. With Charlie Simmons hovering over him. Charlie Simmons who was kissing Ace like he would die if he ever dared to stop. Which was all too true. Without kissing Ace, Charlie was as good as dead. *WARNING*: This story will contain themes of severe depression, suicide, abuse and somewhat graphic depiction of self harm. If any of these things may trigger you please rethink reading this story!! Started: January 21st 2020

$The Game of Life {Completed} by Katjello_23$

He's coming for me, to exploit me. He's learned my secrets and now he's coming. My lungs are filling with toxic air and can't seem to work, my legs feeling as if they are being stabbed. My vision is blurry and I'm slowing. No, he's going to catch me. He can't, I can't let him. He reaches me and catches me in a deadly grip, where I fall to the ground and everything is black. Where my lungs stop my heart, and the violins and cellos are finished with a fading legato bow. WARNINGS/TRIGGERS- Anxiety/Anxiety Attacks, Depression, Smut, Crude Language, Gay Slurs, violence/abuse, gay in general, gore (ish not really), character death. PLEASE DO NOT READ IF YOU ARE TRIGGERED BY ANY OF THESE, PLEASE STAY SAFE ^-^

I have feelings too {phan fanfiction} by phangasms

"Phil..." I manage to breathe out whilst at the same time my heart sunk. I cant believe he actually did it... I didn't think he'd leave me... Oh Phil... I slumped against the wall and let gravity take me with it. "Please come back," I whimpered "please." - Dan and phil have been best friends forever but what happens to dan when phil dissapears? ~ WARNING: smut involved. Language. Self harm. Abuse.

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