Life.
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Last published Sat, Apr 11, 2015
With every thought in the days of my life, I became aware that I wasn't okay. I knew that I was a lost cause and that I desperately searched for love in all the wrong places. With every break up came a new scar and this is my way of keeping the scars off of me. So I write and I write until I become satisfied with my work. It's something about writing to a bunch of people who will probably never see it then keeping it closed up that makes a insane girl. Sane.
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