Tragedy Or So I Was Told(Oneshot)
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Terminé mar., déc. 19, 201715m
Does anyone even care? I'm not cared for, I'm too...Odd to be cared for. Unlike anything, I'm just fed up. Fed up with everything.
I do not want to feel the pain anymore. I just don't want to face another person. I just want to..die.
Blair has Schizophrenia unlike most people, she is unmotivated, Therefore she doubts everything. She doesn't want to be seen as a weak individual. But she can't be in a room with another person. In fear her subconscious voices will take over her. This makes her isolated, but she never is truly alone. Her 'friends' love to bicker in her mind. Reminding her how Useless and Pathetic she is.
Despite everything she's lived for, Blair decides when Graduation happens.Maybe, she should take her life. Maybe then, her 'friends' will leave her alone.
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