In Silent Pain

Have you ever felt so alone, so absolutely full of misery and despair, that you wanted to die? Well that's how I feel. Every. Single. Day.
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As I looked back at how I came to be there, I almost felt bad. There I was, about to throw away those beautiful memories that I had worked so hard to create. They were all going to disappear into nothingness when I was gone, no one would get to see or relive them.

Once upon a time, we were all alone and in silent pain. We didn't realize that there was something greater than this world that connected us. And when we finally did meet, we denied that we were drawn to each other. All young, all broken, all scared. This past year had been the best of my life, probably the best I would ever have, if I chose to live.

With my feet planted on the creaking wood, I looked up to remember us once more, and jumped into the abyss that would whisk me away forever.
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Fourteen (almost fifteen) year old Emma Nolan has terrible anxiety, and the result of that was a severe case of anorexia nervosa. It's a very difficult thing to go through, and her family doesn't really understand how to help her. A suicide attempt was the last straw for her parents, and they decided to move the family to a town in Maine that had resources that may be able to "fix" Emma, only Emma didn't know that.

As Emma experiences life at a new school, in a new town, with new people, she tries to keep her anxiety levels down, but they flare up even more than they did before. Her parents tell her there is a specialist that can help her. What she didn't know about that, was that it was group therapy.

The last thing Emma wants is to be going to therapy with a group of misfits, but if it will distract her from the misery and judgement of her every day life, so be it.

TO BE REVAMPED ON A SEPARATE ACCOUNT AS A NON-OUAT FIC