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Chris Brown is clearly someone who wears his heart on his sleeve. A very emotional person, someone who loves hard and wants the same love in return. He's someone who wants to find love, but he's looking in all the wrong places. He's dated all kinds of women, from strippers, to singers, to models, to regular women. All he wants is what everybody else wants, to be loved.
One night after a show, on the Party Tour, he meets a woman (Shawnie Roberts), it's love at first sight. He does everything he can to make her fall in love with him, but she's battling her own issues, and things don't quite workout. Blinded by love, things quickly progress for Chris, but not for Shawnie, which turns out to be a huge problem for him. Not to mention a certain someone who also becomes a problem for him.
With things not going as he planned, rumors begin to circulate about him, and Shawnie. With Chris feeling rejected by her love, he falls back into his old ways. He begins getting in trouble again with police, fighting, lashing out on friends, all while battling his addiction. In the process of all of this, he turns back into a crazed, love sick, stalker, that's constantly Under The Influence.
⚠️Trigger warning ⚠️
⛔️ Mature audiences & Read at your own risk ⛔️
Drugs
Sex
Violence
Emotional abuse
Pregnancy related issues
Mental Health Issues
This book has a prequel, "Natural Disaster" which should be read after this book, and there is a sequel, "Under The a Influence: N2Deep" which should be read after the prequel.
Note: If you start the sequel you might not understand what's going on. Gotta check out the prequel current chapters first.
Cover done by me
Warnings
Language, Drugs, underaged drinking, substance abuse, homosexuality, homophobia, bullying, a little explicit at parts, blood, suicidal tendencies, mental illness, heartbreak and child abuse.
Credit to Steven king for the characters!!! 🫶🏽 :
Richie moved to Derry in 8th grade after events in his hometown broke his family into fragments. His parents take extra shifts at work to avoid conversation with their son.
Eddie doesn't like Richie at first. Richie is tall and slim dark hair and eyes, and looks to be on drugs. Yay. Everything that Eddie avoids in life. But Richie's personality has Eddie like a magnet.
Bev met Richie in eighth grade after he was beat up by Bowers and his goons. She remembers it like it was yesterday. She's like a sister to Richie and is always by his side. Most think they're dating despite the rumors about Richie.
Bill liked the way Beverly looked since fifth grade. He thought she was really pretty. Short curly hair, green eyes, perfectly pink lips. He thought he was in love with this girl. So his current friends make some few new friends.
Stan is in love with Bill. And he can admit that...to Eddie. Eddie knows, and he's always been super supportive. Derry doesn't like Queer people. Stan isn't out, but he'd still do anything for his close friends...well...crush.
Ben is on the football team. He's shy, but he's been friends with Bev since freshman year. She'd come up to him and spoke to him in one of their shared classes one day. Since then he's had a massive crush on her.
Mike doesn't talk much. He's quiet and un confrontational, but he'd Fuck someone up if they hurt Ben. Ben is like a younger brother to him even though they are the same age, and he may not be mean, but for Ben, he can be.