who am i kidding.
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Last published Mon, Nov 5, 2018
Sometimes I don't know who I'm kidding. Who am I trying to fool? Am I fooling anyone? Definitely not myself. I know my monsters. I like my monsters. I even embrace my monsters. And I know that's not good for me but I don't care. I tell myself that it's not good for me to drown myself with problems. But I'm not going to stop anyways. So who am I kidding?
My life stories, memoirs, some horror stories (they're actually pretty goo, go read!) and mostly poems. Usually depressing, but 100% real. Get to know the real me. Not the person who everyone thinks I am.
Sorry if this makes you worried about me in any way. I concern myself too.
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