who am i kidding.
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MatureOngoing52m
Last published Mon, Nov 5, 2018
Sometimes I don't know who I'm kidding. Who am I trying to fool? Am I fooling anyone? Definitely not myself. I know my monsters. I like my monsters. I even embrace my monsters. And I know that's not good for me but I don't care. I tell myself that it's not good for me to drown myself with problems. But I'm not going to stop anyways. So who am I kidding?
My life stories, memoirs, some horror stories (they're actually pretty goo, go read!) and mostly poems. Usually depressing, but 100% real. Get to know the real me. Not the person who everyone thinks I am.
Sorry if this makes you worried about me in any way. I concern myself too.
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One sample of my work (Note not all poems will be so serious, some are story like others are light hearted): "Every day, something happens... Someone gets bullied, Just because "They're different" "Nerdy" "Annoying" "Have no sense of fashion..." All those things are of unimportance...! Everyone has a choice, Don't let what someone says, change it! You could stand down... Watch as the victim pleads for help... That's the easy path, But is it the right one? Do you want that on your consciousness? The pain can be so bad... It takes a life... Then it's too late, Regret becomes your best mate... A depressing thought... Although. It doesn't have to be that way...! YOU can make it change! Stand tall, speak loud, Stand up for what is right! That one action... Can save a life...! You could make a friend, A REAL friend. Spread awareness and Right the wrong! Be brave! For those who suffer... You're not alone...! If there's no knight to slay The evil demons away... Find it within you, to be strong! If you get no help, save yourself! You deserve happiness, and it will come! For karma never forgets you! Nor your enemies... Once it comes around, it will go around... Speak out, you will be heard...! The era of bullying will be no longer...!"
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