At just 18 years old, Ivory James is not your typical high school student. She is a fashion forward youtube guru. She has been a great inspiration to many plus sized young girls-they love to watch her videos. In a world where it seems to be "shameful," to be bigger as a female, the confidence Ivory has gives these young girls their own confidence. Ironically, while putting on a good front, Ivory still battles with her own self-esteem. That's exactly why she channels her energy into her YouTube account. Her YouTube Channel is her safe haven as she is able to be herself. For this reason she is adored by millions... yet, her channel is so much deeper to her. It is her escape from her reality ; school bullies, insecurities, and her biggest antagonist-her mother. **********************Imagine being bullied all day, and coming home to where you should feel the most comfort, only to be put down by your own mother, the woman who should love you and cherish you no matter what. The amount of hatred weighs Ivory down all the time, she feels worthless and like she's often called a "fat bitch."************** Ivory is put in some difficult positions, will she be able to prevail or will she whither to the depths of depression and ultimately death?
Ella is falling apart trying to live a "perfect" high school life. Then she meets Ren, who can see past her scars. Suddenly perfection isn't her only option.
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Ella Volkov is a gifted music student, but she's depressed and starting to crack under the pressure of high school. Her overbearing father won't even let her choose what instrument she plays. Then she finds herself alone at a party with Ren, her best friend's crush. She'd always thought he was rude, but after that night he's all Ella can think about. Now she's trapped. If Ella dates Ren, it will ruin her friendship with Jenny. But if she stays true to Jenny, she's losing the one person who can see past her scars. It's up to Ella to decide if she will forge her own path, or stay in the "perfect" box designed for her...
Content and/or Trigger Warning: depression, anxiety, self-harm, violence, sexual assault.
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