Madness of Me
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Last published Tue, Jun 23, 2026
this isn't some diary.
(maybe it is i don't know)
but hi make yourself at home in this book that is something called "Madness of Me" while i chill with the vibes old arctic monkeys gives off.
edit 07/03/2021, 11:00 pm: trigger warnings- this journal includes suicidal themes and substance abuse, read at your own risk.
edit 26/10/2021, 11:11 pm: this work is the memoir of a mentally unstable non-binary neurodivergent.
edit 24/08/2022, 7:17 pm: to all the readers of this book, you are loved and appreciated. if you ever experience the events that have unravelled later on in this book, please go to someone you trust and talk to them about it, get yourself out of any dangerous situations as soon as possible. you don't deserve to stay in a toxic relationship, do not submit to harmful coping mechanisms such as s/h and substance abuse. your loved ones will help you get through it. take care of yourselves.
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