The Darkness // Phan
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Last published Sun, Dec 30, 2018
"My life was in color until one day. I was sitting in my 6th grade english class taking a test. Everything was fine, other than the fact that I was taking a test.
Then my heart stopped. I went from seeing the light outside, feeling the warmth , and seeing the variety of color the world was, to nothing.
Black and white.
Emptiness.
I started to scream.
I know that once your soulmate dies, your world goes dark and cold. They just taught us this.
And that was the moment I realized, I'm now alone in the world."
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