My Head
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Última publicación mié, nov 22, 2017
"There is a really dark place in my head that I don't like to go to, at all, ever, but I have no control over it. I will feel myself go to that space and my hand starts to shake as if my body is trying to physically stop it. I feel my stomach drop as if I'm on a roller coaster. I feel it in my bones, this hollow, empty, helpless feeling. I get depressed. Although it's not normal depressed. It's more like a "I hate myself for what I did" because I had no control over my body."
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This is a true and very personal story to me. I would appreciate that you leave comments of judgement so that I can know how you too, would react if you were around this when it was happening, and also maybe what you would've done. Please keep that in mind as you read. This is real. This is life.
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