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my crappy, existential thoughts dump

tired_and_disorderly

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Parts 188
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tired_and_disorderly

dontreadthis iamunabletousemyemotionstotheirfullestcapabilitysoheeeeeryougo imserious yoidk

note from the far future, in much better times; consider this book a diary, an archive, a live day by day biography- of the lowest point of my life so far. draw entertainment from it, by all means, but take it as a warning, of all the bad that comes from staying silent. from putting all of your thoughts into a book instead of saying them out loud. I'm not proud of who I was back when this was written, but I am proud of the fact that I was able to break the cycle. and if you find yourself in a situation similar; I hope you are too.



**THIS BOOK IS NO LONGER UPDATED.**

i need help and here's why.

( if i ever murder someone i pray the police don't find this because it can and will be used against me.)All Rights Reserved

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