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Self Destructive

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Reads 47
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Parts 3
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The once popular boy in school with an easy going smile shows his true colors after almost giving up his battle with depression. 

After his suicide attempt that, nearly claimed his beautiful green eyes, has left him to be more open about his I don't give a fuck attitude and crazy head where his demons run free. 

Drugs become the key to help make himself feel alive after being numb for so long, that is until a person, rather than chemicals fill his loneliness....
But everyone has their secrets.




⚠WARNING⚠
Mature language and graphic images
Don't read if easily triggeredAll Rights Reserved

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DUSTED MELODY [BL] by monalisa71817812

#BL #LoveAtFirstSight #Mystery #UnexpectedConnection #HiddenMelody #FirstDuet #BlossomingLove Ezra's world thrummed with music. Every beat of his headphones, every tap of his foot, was a note in his personal symphony. He poured his emotions into electronic music, crafting melodies that pulsed with raw energy. But his music wasn't a solo performance. Online, under the alias "Voltage," he collaborated with a mysterious supporter known only as "M." "M" was his muse, a constant source of encouragement and cryptic messages, their identities a delicious mystery playing in the background of Ezra's life. new melody had infiltrated Ezra's carefully curated playlist. It wasn't a song, but a presence. Mateo, the new student, had arrived like a discordant note, his guarded demeanor a stark contrast to the vibrant energy Ezra usually craved. Yet, there was something undeniably intriguing about him. The way his eyes flickered away whenever Ezra caught them, the hint of a melancholic smile that played on his lips - it all screamed a hidden melody, a song waiting to be sung. Ezra felt a pull towards Mateo, a desire to unravel the mystery and harmonize their contrasting notes. This wasn't just curiosity; it was the first note of a hesitant duet, a promise of a deeper connection that would blossom throughout their story, leading them to a beautiful, unexpected melody - love.

The Brightest Star by kodycolors

Everyone was charmed by Leo's bright smile but behind it all, he could barely keep it together inside. From taking care of his sick mother to suffering mental and physical abuse from his father to keeping up his perfect grades in school. King was the new kid who had just moved in with his uncle, a shut-in drug boss. He just wanted to finish school in peace. He did not want to make friends and deal with their drama or problems. But when he meets Leo everything changes, and Leo soon finds all his walls being torn down around King. But what happens when someone from Leo's dark past comes back to haunt him? How much more will Leo be able to take before falling off the deep end? And what will happen when King finds himself in the middle of a drug war? Will he be able to protect Leo and his family? Good things don't always happen to good people. Sometimes it's the ones who shine the brightest, who are suffering the most inside. ****** NSFW chapters are censored. Get the full uncensored version on my Patreon page! Link in my Linktree in my profile bio! You have been warned about the censoring, any hate speech in comments about it will result in blocking. Warning! This story contains drug use, physical and mental abuse, tragedy, blood, violence, death, sexual assault, bullying, sickness, and self-harm.

The Citizen Soldier (DNF) by CheetahBoi

!!Trigger warning: suicide, Implied/Referenced Self Harm!! Warnings before sections. . This book is currently discontinued, if I find motivation to finish it it is not in the foreseeable future. . "Trust me." His voice was soft and calming, the way that a good father could be assumed to sound. "This isn't what you want, it never has been and it never will be. Confusion is difficult to work through, but if you just let me help you, I can show you that it can be worked through." He rolled up his sleeve, showing several white streaks across his skin. The other was shocked. "N-no, I'm not good for anything, I'm nothing there's nothing for me." He shook his head many times, holding it in his hands after a bit. "No." "Can I touch you?" The boy who was trying to help this poor soul had approached a few paces. His voice was now quieter, more soft, and still caring. The boy at the bridge took a moment to think, then nodded his approval. The savior gently took the boy's hands delicately in his own and gently pulled the boy back. Well, less of a pull and more of a gentle suggestion. It worked and the boy stumbled down off of the edge. The boy started to cry. How could he be so weak that a boy, the same age as him, who seemed to have the same ideas and hatred toward himself as he, could keep him from stepping off? The other simply gently led him to his vehicle and took out a water bottle out of the backseat. The boy took it and looked at it suspiciously. "It's untampered, look, it's still sealed." Upon seeing this, the boy opened it and took a few sips of water. "Thank you. For the water." The savior smiled. "It's nothing much." He shrugged. "Have a phone? If you want I can put my number in and then you'll always be able to tell someone if you're having a pissy day." Surprisingly enough, the boy agreed. . They would both be around twenty.

Replaceable Timelines: Book 1. [COMPLETED] by tolajo95

Paranoia... has become my constant companion. Ahh... Danny, what've you gotten yourself into? Thought I was doing something... thought I was gonna get better. Turns out it was all for nothing. I knew I'd be here again. Rock bottom's the only place for real pieces of shit like us... Like me. All that self-improvement didn't mean shit... Or I guess it did, or I wouldn't be here right now... Trying to fill those shoes, re-paint that grim portrait that haunted me... and I did, made everyone proud, even you mom... But it won't mean anything if I die out here. I thought those jumbled remnants of thoughts were the pull of my former self in a disassosiative amnesia from the drugs... Guess it was the pull of a much more treacherous force. I wish I could've lived my fantasy out and been happy.... At least you were, while it lasted. "Times almost up, they'll be here soon." TRIGGER WARNINGS: Crude humor, Illicit drug use, Drug overdose, loss of a child, suicide, bullying, traumatic events, Mature themes, graphic violence, death.

F.A.F // H2OVanoss [Completed] by ChaolypticCrticism

Look at me, not too close, though, just from the outside. What do you see? A smile? Friends? Happiness? Joy? Everything that I could ever want? A perfect life, if you wanted to go that far. Now, look a bit closer. See those bags under my eyes? Hear the pain in my voice? The fatigue in my movements? Cautious glances, fearful expressions, the flinches at the slightest touch? Do you see that? Well, ignore it. Because, Fuckboys Are Fine. ------------- WARNING: This story contains some mature themes and triggering topics, please read at your own risk.

𝐏𝐀𝐒𝐒 𝐈𝐓 𝐎𝐍 ⊱ 𝘴𝘮𝘪𝘭𝘦 by silkytu

─── 🕊️ .ᐟ In which , 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗯𝗼𝘆𝗳𝗿𝗶𝗲𝗻𝗱 𝗯𝗲𝗴𝗶𝗻𝘀 𝗵𝗮𝗹𝗹𝘂𝗰𝗶𝗻𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗻𝗴 , 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗮 𝗰𝗲𝗿𝘁𝗮𝗶𝗻 𝗲𝗻𝘁𝗶𝘁𝘆 𝗳𝗲𝗲𝗱𝘀 𝗼𝗳𝗳 𝗼𝗳 𝗵𝗶𝘀 𝘁𝗿𝗮𝘂𝗺𝗮. ❪ cursed!male!oc ✘ fem!reader ❫ 𝜗ৎ written by silkytu ❀

Stay With Me § BWWM JB by yanaabananaa

•COMPLETED• You are about to step foot on a roller coaster ride that you might be on for a while. Throughout the ride you'll find yourself wanting to vomit, but you manage to hold it in. When you see everyone getting off, you realize that the ride is finally over and once your feet hit the ground, you feel like a weight has been lifted off your shoulders. Then you look into the distance and feel so relieved because you see something not so horrific. The thing you see is what you've been waiting for ever since you got on that hell of a ride. It just might take you some time to actually get there considering there's a huge crowd in your way and it's hard to get through. Hopefully by the time you actually get there, it's what you thought it was going to be. Justin's life is that roller coaster. He has gone through so much that he breaks down and loses himself. Hopefully he can find his way back from the darkness and be met with light. Then once he's able to do that, let's pray that he can remain happy. Hope you enjoy. (:

not a love story. {dreamnotfound} by dnfmoony

"This isn't some stupid book, Dream." George scoffs. "You of all people should know that. Right?" "What do you mean by that?" "This isn't a love story. This isn't a happy ending. We can't be happy. Understand that and just give up. Just leave." "What if I don't want to?" "You have to . . ." He looks down. Dream's gaze is far too intense at the moment and if he looks any longer he knows he'll break. He knows he'll fall and he won't be able get out this time - like he had with him. **** start: may 31st, 2021 end: august 1st, 2021 |top tag goals| #53 in recovery // june 2nd, 2021 #12 in drug use // june 2nd, 2021 #6 in bpd // august 8th, 2021

Before The End (One Direction) by BomPomm

"I wasn't addicted to drugs. Yes, I liked using drugs, but to call me an addict would be a false accusation. But then, why can't I stop?" Harry Styles seemingly had everything a 16 year old could ever dream of. He was attractive, famous, rich and part of the biggest boyband in the world. His life outwardly appeared to be a straight line of perfection. Then he met Cory Bleu and things changed. Desperate to escape his childlike boybander persona, Harry allows Cory to take him on a dive headfirst into the dark side of the celebrity world that he's been sheltered from. Without warning he's thrust into a life of lies, scandal, sex, violence and especially drugs. Faced with a growing addiction that he can't seem to stop and the unexpected death of someone incredibly important to him, Harry starts to wonder if he can ever get out of the hole he's buried himself in. Can Harry recognize the consequences of his actions before he hurts everyone he loves? *Trigger Warning: Deals with drug abuse, alcoholism, suicide, depression, self harm, sexual abuse, etc.*

Hidden Beneath The Scars by Castiebee

Rich was starting his freshman year, and he's trying to survive with all this. However, when he takes a pill to seem cooler does it really help? Rich Origin Story oml I've wanted to do this for soooo long! Trigger Warning: Child Abuse, Parental neglect, mentions of suicide, and self harm I'm sorry for the sad, but I'm not sorry for the ChArAcTeR DeVeLoPmEnT

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DUSTED MELODY [BL]

#BL #LoveAtFirstSight #Mystery #UnexpectedConnection #HiddenMelody #FirstDuet #BlossomingLove Ezra's world thrummed with music. Every beat of his headphones, every tap of his foot, was a note in his personal symphony. He poured his emotions into electronic music, crafting melodies that pulsed with raw energy. But his music wasn't a solo performance. Online, under the alias "Voltage," he collaborated with a mysterious supporter known only as "M." "M" was his muse, a constant source of encouragement and cryptic messages, their identities a delicious mystery playing in the background of Ezra's life. new melody had infiltrated Ezra's carefully curated playlist. It wasn't a song, but a presence. Mateo, the new student, had arrived like a discordant note, his guarded demeanor a stark contrast to the vibrant energy Ezra usually craved. Yet, there was something undeniably intriguing about him. The way his eyes flickered away whenever Ezra caught them, the hint of a melancholic smile that played on his lips - it all screamed a hidden melody, a song waiting to be sung. Ezra felt a pull towards Mateo, a desire to unravel the mystery and harmonize their contrasting notes. This wasn't just curiosity; it was the first note of a hesitant duet, a promise of a deeper connection that would blossom throughout their story, leading them to a beautiful, unexpected melody - love.