Self Destructive
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Ongoing6m
Last published Fri, Feb 9, 2018
The once popular boy in school with an easy going smile shows his true colors after almost giving up his battle with depression.
After his suicide attempt that, nearly claimed his beautiful green eyes, has left him to be more open about his I don't give a fuck attitude and crazy head where his demons run free.
Drugs become the key to help make himself feel alive after being numb for so long, that is until a person, rather than chemicals fill his loneliness....
But everyone has their secrets.
⚠WARNING⚠
Mature language and graphic images
Don't read if easily triggered
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