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Self Destructive

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The once popular boy in school with an easy going smile shows his true colors after almost giving up his battle with depression. 

After his suicide attempt that, nearly claimed his beautiful green eyes, has left him to be more open about his I don't give a fuck attitude and crazy head where his demons run free. 

Drugs become the key to help make himself feel alive after being numb for so long, that is until a person, rather than chemicals fill his loneliness....
But everyone has their secrets.




⚠WARNING⚠
Mature language and graphic images
Don't read if easily triggeredAll Rights Reserved

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F.A.F // H2OVanoss [Completed] by ChaolypticCrticism

Look at me, not too close, though, just from the outside. What do you see? A smile? Friends? Happiness? Joy? Everything that I could ever want? A perfect life, if you wanted to go that far. Now, look a bit closer. See those bags under my eyes? Hear the pain in my voice? The fatigue in my movements? Cautious glances, fearful expressions, the flinches at the slightest touch? Do you see that? Well, ignore it. Because, Fuckboys Are Fine. ------------- WARNING: This story contains some mature themes and triggering topics, please read at your own risk.

The Citizen Soldier (DNF) by CheetahBoi

!!Trigger warning: suicide, Implied/Referenced Self Harm!! Warnings before sections. . This book is currently discontinued, if I find motivation to finish it it is not in the foreseeable future. . "Trust me." His voice was soft and calming, the way that a good father could be assumed to sound. "This isn't what you want, it never has been and it never will be. Confusion is difficult to work through, but if you just let me help you, I can show you that it can be worked through." He rolled up his sleeve, showing several white streaks across his skin. The other was shocked. "N-no, I'm not good for anything, I'm nothing there's nothing for me." He shook his head many times, holding it in his hands after a bit. "No." "Can I touch you?" The boy who was trying to help this poor soul had approached a few paces. His voice was now quieter, more soft, and still caring. The boy at the bridge took a moment to think, then nodded his approval. The savior gently took the boy's hands delicately in his own and gently pulled the boy back. Well, less of a pull and more of a gentle suggestion. It worked and the boy stumbled down off of the edge. The boy started to cry. How could he be so weak that a boy, the same age as him, who seemed to have the same ideas and hatred toward himself as he, could keep him from stepping off? The other simply gently led him to his vehicle and took out a water bottle out of the backseat. The boy took it and looked at it suspiciously. "It's untampered, look, it's still sealed." Upon seeing this, the boy opened it and took a few sips of water. "Thank you. For the water." The savior smiled. "It's nothing much." He shrugged. "Have a phone? If you want I can put my number in and then you'll always be able to tell someone if you're having a pissy day." Surprisingly enough, the boy agreed. . They would both be around twenty.

fade to gray (frank ocean) by jvpiter

if you could define life by color, life before Him was kinda pale. the days were pretty and pink, but there was no warmth to give it vibrancy or nothing. every day was basically the same and exhaustingly boring. His arrival brought not only new colors and vibrancy, but meaning to the ones i'd already known. i loved it, the months where things were good between us felt like he showed me a new way of life that was totally different from everything. he left, snatching the color back from me. i don't know how i'll find anything like that ever again, so i suppose i'll try suppressing the memories. even if it means i fade to gray.

I Want You by Emily_Hail

Hi, I'm Hallie; I am 17 years old and I went through depression from the Abuse I got from my father. You know the usual, feeling as if you're the only person who won't feel loved in life, that nobody's going to care for you, the one in school that's bullied. The only person who has ever asked if I was okay, was my mother. But that was over eight years ago. Yes I was getting abused by my father for over eight years My appearance is different from what you may think. I have long brown hair, grey eyes like my mother's, I'm kind of tan, my height is 5'3. Yes, I am short as well. I'm half Irish, a third Italian and half German. One thing is certain though, I was a burden to everybody who has ever spoken to me. I have no friends and basically this all changed due to me being late for school one day.... ▪️▪️▪️▪️▪️▪️▪️▪️▪️▪️▪️▪️▪️ 𝚆𝚊𝚛𝚗𝚒𝚗𝚐𝚜~ -Mature scenes -Abuse -Sexual Assault -Drugs -Alcohol -Mention of Suicide -SelfHarm -Violence ▪️▪️▪️▪️▪️▪️▪️▪️▪️▪️▪️▪️▪️ If you are ever having any issue with Self-Harm, a friend is or your just worried about someone. These are some places you can contact. National Suicide Prevention Lifeline- 1800-273-8255 Mobile Crisis Line- 704-566-3410 The Crisis Text Line- 741-741 Domestic Violence Hotline- 800-799-7233 Text START to 88788

Stay With Me § BWWM JB by yanaabananaa

•COMPLETED• You are about to step foot on a roller coaster ride that you might be on for a while. Throughout the ride you'll find yourself wanting to vomit, but you manage to hold it in. When you see everyone getting off, you realize that the ride is finally over and once your feet hit the ground, you feel like a weight has been lifted off your shoulders. Then you look into the distance and feel so relieved because you see something not so horrific. The thing you see is what you've been waiting for ever since you got on that hell of a ride. It just might take you some time to actually get there considering there's a huge crowd in your way and it's hard to get through. Hopefully by the time you actually get there, it's what you thought it was going to be. Justin's life is that roller coaster. He has gone through so much that he breaks down and loses himself. Hopefully he can find his way back from the darkness and be met with light. Then once he's able to do that, let's pray that he can remain happy. Hope you enjoy. (:

𝐌𝐘 𝐏𝐄𝐀𝐂𝐄 by pssyprnt

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Ruin Me So You Can Save Yourself (Daryl Dixon X Male OC) by MIshaSatanHimself

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F.A.F // H2OVanoss [Completed]

Look at me, not too close, though, just from the outside. What do you see? A smile? Friends? Happiness? Joy? Everything that I could ever want? A perfect life, if you wanted to go that far. Now, look a bit closer. See those bags under my eyes? Hear the pain in my voice? The fatigue in my movements? Cautious glances, fearful expressions, the flinches at the slightest touch? Do you see that? Well, ignore it. Because, Fuckboys Are Fine. ------------- WARNING: This story contains some mature themes and triggering topics, please read at your own risk.