"I Won't Eat"
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MatureOngoing12m
Last published Wed, May 9, 2018
dan howell is a 16 year old boy who struggles with depression and self harm as well as an eating disorder. he doesn't think its worth living.....until he meets phil. maybe things will get better...or will phil leave him like everyone else has in the past.
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trigger warnings: binging, purging, self harm, maybe a lil smut ??
I will list other trigger warnings when they appear.
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