Inner Demons (Phan)
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Darkness and shattering...
That was just everything Dan knew. His life wasn't perfect, it was hell and insanity. Their whispers haunted him every night and their actions hurt him by day. Nothing seemed to get better. His only company was with the dark demons inside of him. For now his escape is cutting and smoking. He's sinking and drowning. He's weak and numb. All he wants deep down is someone to save him. But everyone rejects and taunts him, killing him inside and feeding his demons even more. Maybe there might be hope when the new kid, Phil Lester tries to befriend him but everything always seem to go wrong around Dan. He may reach the light, full of warmth and safety or he might just end down the road ready to end it all.
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