Learning to love myself
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Ongoing28m
Last published Mon, Nov 27, 2017
You ever feel like as if you're worthless? like the whole world is against you? Well.... I hope you don't.... And I might have been blowing this intro out of proportion because that's me... I over think every situation mainly because I am a perfectionist... I need things some certain way.... Anyways you'd get to see it in this story... Here's my life and how I handle things....
My name.... Rasheedah (yeah its pronounced how its spelt) but lemme break it down for ya *wink* RA-SHEE-DAH there..
I am a 21 year old.... Learning that most things don't usually and most definitely ain't supposed to be a certain way as you'd planned or hoped...
I live with my parents.... I have 4siblings including me which makes us 5... Two of them are married.... I'm the baby of the house... The first chapter is all about my sisters wedding.... I am a Nigerian and live here too... But I have traveled most of the world... I at least have seen seven of the worlds wonders.... The greatest one for me being the Eiffel tower....
Look at me blabbing so much on the intro.... Let's get on to it
This is my first ever book by the way....
I hope you love it... I'm not one for great words or anything much.... And I use the punctuation marks weirdly..... So bear with me... And without any further ado.... Let's get on with it. (That kinda reminded of RCLbeauty) from YouTube
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