drowning in the dark
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MatureOngoing2h 11m
Last published Fri, Mar 2, 2018
Gerard Way is falling apart, he's screaming for help but no one can hear him.
Not over the screaming shadows, his classmates laughter, the loudness of his music and the static in his head.
No one can hear him, no one can see him.
Until someone finally lets Gerard hold onto them, and that person stays with him.
TW: suicide/suicidal thoughts/suicidal tendencies/self harm/abuse/rape/child abuse/homophobia/relapse/alcoholism/drug abuse
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• yes sorry, Mikey is older than Gee in this
• previously titled: (it's best this way) i'm used to being left behind
• slow updates - sorry
• cross posted on archive of our own
• © pastel-romantic ; 2017-2018
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