drowning in the dark
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Gerard Way is falling apart, he's screaming for help but no one can hear him.
Not over the screaming shadows, his classmates laughter, the loudness of his music and the static in his head.
No one can hear him, no one can see him.
Until someone finally lets Gerard hold onto them, and that person stays with him.
TW: suicide/suicidal thoughts/suicidal tendencies/self harm/abuse/rape/child abuse/homophobia/relapse/alcoholism/drug abuse
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• yes sorry, Mikey is older than Gee in this
• previously titled: (it's best this way) i'm used to being left behind
• slow updates - sorry
• cross posted on archive of our own
• © pastel-romantic ; 2017-2018
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I wanted to both kiss the bruises off his poor milky skin and cause more. He was an asshole. A pure descendant of the devil. Why did I ever let him in my life? The moment I laid eyes upon him was the moment I knew his middle name spelt trouble. -- Gerard was fine before he met Frank, the bad boy with far too many problems and far too little care to fix them. Gerard had his life together. Well...somewhat. Okay, maybe he hardly could keep himself afloat, but inserting Frank into his downwards-spiraling life only seemed to fuel the fire. But then again, Gerard knew all too well that you can't fight fire with love. He fought fire with fire.
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