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My Mind Is Darkness

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Reads 526
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Parts 20
Time 7m

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This isn't really a story. It's based off of a real life person. Can you guess who it is? Yup! It's me! This is a book of thoughts that run through my terrible brain. I got this idea off of someone named Anitnocaptain. You should go check her out! But anyway, life for me is a big and scary roller coaster that I wish I never got on. For me, writing my feelings is a lot better than talking to people about them because when writing it, no one will be able to judge you besides yourself. So I guess just read this if you want to. And if anyone wants to talk, just message me and I'll respond as soon as I can.All Rights Reserved

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Her Breaking Point

He had rules for a reason, or thats what he said. I did something wrong I got punished. I spoke out of turn, I got punished. I looked at him or ate without permission, I got punished. Haven thats what they named me funny isn't it? Ironic really. They named me Haven because my mom would say I was her 'Safe Haven'. What a pile of shit that was. She left willingly, she didn't depart because of some tragic accident. My father didn't kill her. She left because she was a coward who didn't want kids. As soon as my older brother went to college she left. I knew she hated me. I was the product of her love with another man. A constant reminder that her life didn't work out the way it was planned. He who ever he was is a phantom in its own. A deep rooted fantasy never going to come true. My brother left, my mother left, my grandma ignored, and my father broke. They let me give up hope on escaping and then decided to play hero. But I haven't forgotten everything I went through. Guilt consumes my brother but I don't care, you don't get to leave and then buy a reprieve of trying to save someone who has been dead for years. Besides lets just be honest I reached my breaking point long ago.