Why do I feel like this...?
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"I know that I doesn't feel good and that he often is the reason I get anxiety. But I can't let him go! Okay?! He has made me smile so much! And he has made me feel enough so much! He has made me feel safe so much and he is the reason I could sleep on that boat! I can't let him go when he helps me so much! Even if he is a big part of why I am depressed!"
Amanda drags Lily to the church she's going to. They are going to take the confirmation in that church together. Lily has been in it one time before. But that was like 1-2 years ago. Lily doesn't know anybody accept of Amanda and Kyle. They all goes in the same class in school. They are going in the church on Wednesdays when it is confirmation and on Saturdays when it's different games and the people are in different ages. Lily meets all the people on the first Saturday and it is one guy who stays in her mind for a very long time. She gets to know him and just love his company. But on the first confirmation camp on the boat, she tells him one of her many problems...She starts to get panic attacks, anxiety, feel very bad and she also starts to tear herself with her own nails on her arm. She thought she was happy to have him as a friend...but does she make him feel bad? Is she bad for him? Is he bad for her? No he can't be...or can he?
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