"Maybe it was the way the wind was howling through the trees, or the way her heart starting beating faster once she realized what she was doing, but her hand stayed where it was, at the nape of his neck, and despite the chills she was feeling, anxious nerves ran up and down her body, like her atoms were going to break apart indivually and then combust all together. Just an inch, just one inch closer, and she'd be doing the unimaginable. And despite the stupid anger she was baying to drive her mind on the right track -- she didn't mind that her heart raced faster, and that Ethan's breathing became more staggered. She just knelt there, holding onto him, and her mind frantically blaring at her to not do what she was about to do -- to not do the unthinkable, she'd be breaking all the rules she set for herself and Ethan. But somehow she knew, if she only leaned in that inch closer -- that small inch closer -- she was going to break her heart again. But Sarah kissed him anyway." (Updates every Friday afternoons and Saturday nights -- no promises though :) )
Ella is falling apart trying to live a "perfect" high school life. Then she meets Ren, who can see past her scars. Suddenly perfection isn't her only option.
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Ella Volkov is a gifted music student, but she's depressed and starting to crack under the pressure of high school. Her overbearing father won't even let her choose what instrument she plays. Then she finds herself alone at a party with Ren, her best friend's crush. She'd always thought he was rude, but after that night he's all Ella can think about. Now she's trapped. If Ella dates Ren, it will ruin her friendship with Jenny. But if she stays true to Jenny, she's losing the one person who can see past her scars. It's up to Ella to decide if she will forge her own path, or stay in the "perfect" box designed for her...
Content and/or Trigger Warning: depression, anxiety, self-harm, violence, sexual assault.
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