Benevolence
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Last published Sun, Feb 7, 2021
"A part of me has always wanted to be punished, to experience pain at its highest degree, and to be ripped apart in every way possible for surviving the crash. But I was stupid for not knowing the extent of that wish; for not knowing that pain isn't always sharp and fleeting, bloody and easily relived.
Except, It's well-orchestrated and cunning, unexpected and permanently disabling. It's mental and emotional turmoil, Love in its darkest, ugliest of forms.... and for someone who you never thought capable of inflicting it, it is the sweetest form of revenge.
They say love makes you do crazy things, but trauma--trauma is one hell of a bitch."
--A.J.
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Brown Sugar X Euphoria.
Twenty-one-year-old Alaina Joseph is undeniably lost after surviving a fatal car crash that leaves her fatherless. With two of the most important men in her life fighting for her attention, her survivors' guilt eating away at her, and the surmounting pressure of being a college junior...what will happen once she finds out her past is very much present, and out to get her?
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An honest, raw, poetic tale of Descension.
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