"A part of me has always wanted to be punished, to experience pain at its highest degree, and to be ripped apart in every way possible for surviving the crash. But I was stupid for not knowing the extent of that wish; for not knowing that pain isn't always sharp and fleeting, bloody and easily relived.
Except, It's well-orchestrated and cunning, unexpected and permanently disabling. It's mental and emotional turmoil, Love in its darkest, ugliest of forms.... and for someone who you never thought capable of inflicting it, it is the sweetest form of revenge.
They say love makes you do crazy things, but trauma--trauma is one hell of a bitch."
--A.J.
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Brown Sugar X Euphoria.
Twenty-one-year-old Alaina Joseph is undeniably lost after surviving a fatal car crash that leaves her fatherless. With two of the most important men in her life fighting for her attention, her survivors' guilt eating away at her, and the surmounting pressure of being a college junior...what will happen once she finds out her past is very much present, and out to get her?
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An honest, raw, poetic tale of Descension.
Grief. It can tear someone's life apart or make them stronger. Though that may be true, Bethane only feels the pain. She lost the person who made her life exciting, what was she supposed to feel?
But losing someone right in front of you hurts more and is a different type of grief that she experienced for three years. Three years up until Rider came back into her life and decided that he wanted to earn her trust again. Bethane has already moved on as she says and claims to hate him but is what she feels really hate, or is it betrayal done by the one person she chose to let herself be vulnerable?
Rider is committed to earning her trust again and getting a second chance. Bethane is committed to ignoring and hating him for the rest of her life, but with those two very different goals, who's going to accomplish theirs in the end?
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