DISQUIETING

An inside look at mental illness. Mental health is more than emotions. It can cause physical effects. If you think you are suffering from mental illness, please see your family doctor about a referral to a psychiatrist.
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There's silence. It's so quiet you can feel it. The man I love lay next to me, as dull pain flows through me. My thoughts are blank, but still, the heavy weight presses on me. My anxiety is always there. I feel the lump in my throat, the heaviness in my breaths. If you had told me two years ago that I would even have someone I love in a tangible proximity to me, I would laugh nervously. Thinking of where I was then, I can feel a rush of nausea flow from my throat to the pit of my stomach. This is a story about Anxiety. There is more than one type of anxiety disorder. I suffer with five, along with a few other mental disorders. I want to raise awareness on how it feels to have multiple anxiety disorders. This will not be Non-fiction. This story will not be an exact biography on my life, but it will have similarities to past experiences.
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Amory Grace isn't a regular girl. She's not about to meet some random guy and fall head over heels for him. She suffers quietly. She's sick, but not in a way you can see. She's got Anxiety. I know what you're thinking. Everyone gets anxious, right? Well this is different. She has multiple anxiety disorders that effect her daily activities. It makes getting out of bed difficult, getting ready and acceptable for the day nearly impossible, and parties? That's not a word in her vocabulary. No, Amory isn't like the average girl you see on the streets, sipping on Starbucks without a care, other than wether that guy from last night will call. This isn't a cheesy romance novel. Caring about Cullen Davis wasn't on her checklist.