While on tour Ashton has been struggling the past couple of months, while no one seems to notice, until Luke does one day. Luke who has started drinking again struggles to contain his back and forth mindset with his feelings towards Ashton and his own issues. Luke's battle with substance abuse and Ashton's declining mental health, mixed into their already crazy lives, starts a horrible downhill spiral for one of them.
Trigger warning
This book contains graphic descriptions and feelings that the reader may be trigger by, please read at your comfort level, this book is also incomplete and I haven't edited the chapters at the top to contain trigger warnings yet.
-work in progress-
Started in 2017 and picked up again in 2024. I feel like my writing has changed a lot since 2017, very unedited, just something for me to do/ keep me occupied.
Luke Hemmings is a guy who thinks he is a total badass. He loves getting new tattoos and piercings. He rides a motorcycle and plays guitar. His best friend Calum thinks he is a badass as well and is punk rock.
Ashton Irwin is a loner. He has a best friend Michael. His only friend. But that doesnt matter to Ashton. He only needs Michael to be happy. But he is never happy. He is depressed and thinks that everyone hates him and that he is worthless, fat, and ugly. But he isnt he just believes that.
When these two guys meet there whole life changes.
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[Warnings: boyxboy, swearing, abuse, self-harm, may be triggering]
[Side pairings: Malum]