Remember when you had a crush on Shawn? Remember when you cried in front of your entire school? Remember when you were accused of cheating and was called a slut? You may not remember, but I do. And I'll remember, for as long as you live.
Noelle's life has been hard. Some say she has all the money she could ever need, while others say she is a depressed slut. Her teenage years are nothing but rumors and self harm, drinking and violence, and of course, her difficult family and where she stood on the social ladder in her school.
You want to know something, something you may have not realized until you discovered this next sentence? You are reading this with that little voice inside your head. Crazy, right? And that voice likes to have it's own opinion, and it isn't afraid to speak what it thinks.
Sometimes, that little voice, may encourage you, tell you how amazing and strong you are through those difficult times. Maybe it pushes you to do the impossible. Or like it does to many teens, it pushes you down under. Constantly nagging on about every mistake you've ever made, and never letting you forget about those depressing moments in your past. And that's what people think it's here for. And It's never going to go away.
For as long as you live.
Ella is falling apart trying to live a "perfect" high school life. Then she meets Ren, who can see past her scars. Suddenly perfection isn't her only option.
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Ella Volkov is a gifted music student, but she's depressed and starting to crack under the pressure of high school. Her overbearing father won't even let her choose what instrument she plays. Then she finds herself alone at a party with Ren, her best friend's crush. She'd always thought he was rude, but after that night he's all Ella can think about. Now she's trapped. If Ella dates Ren, it will ruin her friendship with Jenny. But if she stays true to Jenny, she's losing the one person who can see past her scars. It's up to Ella to decide if she will forge her own path, or stay in the "perfect" box designed for her...
Content and/or Trigger Warning: depression, anxiety, self-harm, violence, sexual assault.
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