Saudade
-the feeling of longing for someone or something which is lost.
"Its been six years since the last time you committed yourself to someone"
"What can I say? I dont like commitments"
Saudade [saʊˈdɑːdə]
A deep emotional state of nostalgic or profound melancholic longing for an absent something or someone that one cares for and/or loves. Moreover, it often carries a repressed knowledge that the object of longing might never be had again.
[This story was already posted at my stan account in twitter.]