Manični poet
- Reads 15
- Votes 2
- Parts 1
Ongoing<5 mins
Last published Wed, Dec 13, 2017
Ime mi je Jaka in to je moja zgodba. Brez olepševanj, brez cenzure, brez nepotrebnega nakladanja. Vse, kar je zapisano v njej, se je res zgodilo. Sploh ni pomembno, ali se je dogajalo v resničnem svetu ali je bil zgolj privid mojega bolnega uma. Zame je bilo resnično. In za ljudi okrog mene tudi. Po branju teh vrstic me bodo nekateri razumeli bolje, drugi ne bodo več želeli imeti opravka z menoj. A to sploh ni pomembno. Resnica mora priti na dan. Moja resnica. Resnica maničnega depresivca.
All Rights Reserved
#151
depresija
Join the largest storytelling communityGet personalized story recommendations, save your favourites to your library, and comment and vote to grow your community.
You may also like
![Jade Locust Among Gold Silk [OC Insert x LMK]](https://img.wattpad.com/cover/343616624-256-k139339.jpg)
Jade Locust Among Gold Silk [OC Insert x LMK]
{Since I, the creator am extremely burnt out and out of ideas, take an LMK self-insert} [NONE OF THESE PICTURES ARE MINE UNLESS I CALIM THEM. That includes the cover] ------- "Sen it's time to go!" "Coming!" I responded closing the LMK edit I was enjoying, Summer break finally was here and I was too excited to see my little sister! Finally everything was coming together! _____ My lungs ache and clench desperately as I fail to open my eyes, soaked in blood and debris I can feel everything I ever hoped for leaving me... Nora...I'm so...so- _____ "..." I exhale somberly as I flex my fingers to their best of limits, till the thick gauze and bandages force me to relax... How come I remember everything that happened? That doesn't really happen in resurrection right? Aren't I supposed to forget my past life? Well, I do still have my phone...and I look almost identical to before... Did I even die? Or did something else happen in those few seconds? _____ A seemingly normal yet depressed teen, only 19 and a half... Summer break should've been the beginning of blessing after blessing... But this was a nightmare...one that she somehow coped with...and continues to. _____ 'I don't have time to cry anymore-! Their gone! I'm dead! I'm just a dead memory to them now! It's not like mom will miss me!' _____ "Look kid, the more you grumble about how bad life was to you, maybe you should- "Should what? Let loose? Have fun? Be an impulsive jerk-!?" It was obvious my snap back caught the legend off guard, but...I didn't care... I don't care... _____ "Look MK...There's nothing you can do to help me, your a hero......not a god." _____ 'OH GOD HE'S HOT-!!' _____ One summer, one train wreck, a few bad discussions, and a lot of kettle chips. The Jade Locust will continue the fester and devour your soul... I will make sure of that. _____ Hehe, Writers block go BRRRRRR [Started: June 9, 2023] [Ended:June 26, 2023] Note: I've now made Sen 19 years old.Complete
Forgotten Minds
PROLOGUE: X: I don't have a name? I don't know who I am? I never have. Everyone calls me X like the letter. I live in a hospital for mentally ill people. But. I am not mentally ill. I never have been. I don't know why, or how I got here? But all I do know is that I don't deserve to be here but we all know why im really here its because they think i'm... different... Tana: I've always liked the colour red. Red, is for rage, and anger, but it also means love and roses. How I love roses. My name is....well i was never given one, my parents didn't care enough i suppose but everyone calls me Tana. I've been stuck in a hospital without knowing why? My sister couldn't take care of me so I was placed in this hospital? I've always wondered why? Sometimes I wonder why I have to be so...different... CA$H: My name is CA$H. No one knows my real name and no one ever will! I am taking that shit to my grave. I have been in this dumb ass facility for two years now. Because I'm supposedly Ill like they have to be high or something right. Because I am not crazy. I KNOW I'm not. I think they put me in here because I'm... different... Ian: "Sometimes, happy memories hurt the most." That is the worst quote ever. How can happy memories hurt and be sad? If I had true, real happy memories I would never complain. Because to have happy memories you need to have sad ones. The meaning of life, what does that even mean? What does anything mean anymore? Maybe they're all right. Maybe I am just too...different...
Gereksiz İntikam
Shoaib When I saw her in bridal attire, crying helplessly and miserable, I didn't think twice to play the hero in her life. But you know when things go wrong? Exactly when Abraham bhai decides to remarry us. I hate her to the core because her brother took a piece of my heart by manipulating her. Now, even I don't know what I will do with this unwanted girl waiting for me, all dolled up as my bride because I already tainted her innocence in most unforgivable way , zina i can named it. ( Zina= committing adultery without nikah) Taniya I was devastated after Navruz's death; my heart bled knowing he was just using me and would sell me to other men. So when Shoaib gave me his shoulder to cry on, I didn't think twice before leaning my head. Unknown to the fact that he is my biggest nightmare, all dressed like a daydream *** "Don't worry, I will abort this baby of yours," she said emotionlessly. "I also want her to abort this filth, but I don't know why my heart aches by hearing her words." "She is a woman, right? And a woman has the purest and softest heart. How could she be talking about aborting my child without any remorse and pain?" "My child," bitterness filled my tongue just with his mere thought. "Why would you abort my child?" I asked out of nowhere. Unwanted emotions are taking place in my heart. "Because your child will always remind me of your injustice to me," she said, trying to be strong. Bitter memories engulf my mind. "What if I didn't allow you to abort?" I asked, controlling my rage. "Then give me a divorce after I give birth to your child," she said confidently. Her confidence is making me furious. I fisted her hair in a tight grip, making her yelp in pain. Today she will witness the darkest side of me After all, I married her to take my revengeComplete
K: The Heart in Blue
You have a terrible past. As you grow older, you're still thinking your old, horrible past. As the days gone longer, you met someone who is kind and tries to help you. He joins you in his Blue team and puts you in a special position. You became happy that you almost forgot your past. One day, you felt suicidal. You ran far away that no one can find you. You've been planning to cut your pulse. He found out and he looks for you. Soon, he finds you, stops to cut your pulse and consoles you. You already forgot your past. You let it go. And now, you felt something different that your heart beats fast. Everyday as you work hard on his Blue team, he always asks you if you're okay. And asks you to go out with him if you're free. Even though you are busy working in his Blue Clan, you are always free to talk with him. Because the person who did all for you, is the person who loves you. You just realized that you're also attracted at him. And yet, you loved him back. You felt comfortable when you're in his side. Because you're in a calming color. The color Blue which you work hard together as a team. You fell inlove with the color Blue where he works. You are also working in Blue. The 2 of you had the same work. Now that you're working in Blue where he works , and your heart likes it, you probably know what your heart feels....Complete
Hate War
His cold eyes moved from my face to all over my white lace dress with a clenched jaw. I felt weak in my knees but I was successful in keeping my brave face. "Nina is that you? You are looking so beautiful" he said while looking at me. I blushed I was still feeling burning holes in my back I gulp down nervously. "Have some drink?" he said while taking a glass from the waiter. "No she is leaving," said the harsh voice next thing I know champagne was all over my dress staining it and making me gasp. Before I could react he gripped my hand & dragged me near the pool area where no one could see us. I snatched my hand away from his tight grip "Why the hell you ruined my dress" I half yelled. "What the fuck you are doing at my party looking like a slut" he yelled angrily while pinning me to the wall. Listening to his words my blood boiled. "Let me guess you came here to ruin my mood by showing your ugly face," he said with an angry smirk letting me know his hate. "Stop giving yourself so much importance. I'm here for your mom. My face may be ugly but ugly souls like you are not even worthy of my life's single second" I said angrily and pushed him away from me but he didn't let me go away. "I can hide my ugly soul beside this face but ugly ducklings like you carry their ugliness which can't even be hidden by beautiful dresses because they stain everything around them with their ugliness" his words were hurting my soul. I won't give him the privilege to see my tears. With all my power I pushed him making him stumble and fall into the pool. "Happy birthday," saying that I tried to walk away with a victory smirk but he didn't let me go. Things he did to me after that still send a shiver down my spine. One thing was clear that day I would never want to see his face again in this life. But I don't know why the hell I am standing in front of him in church wearing a wedding gown. Looking at his victory angry smirk plastered to his face with my glassy eyes.Complete
Mrs. Hood (A August Alsina and Mila J Fan Fic)
I feel like nobody loves me. It seems like everyone is out to get me. Sometimes I want to just kill my self. I have 2 fucked up parents. My favorite brother died. I be samned if I let another loved one leave my life. But I know that.....I have to stay alive and defeat the other side. Get my daughter back. I just want my regular life back.....and I'm gonna get it back😈.Complete
CHIDIYA | AdiYa Fanfic
**Can be read as General Fiction** _________________________________________ Its a story of a girl named Zoya who has always been protected so much by the people whom she loves with all her heart whether it be her father or her husband. Her life comes crashing down when she gets to know what really her life was. She is broken and has forgot to smile. Her life seemed perfect but nothing in the world can be perfect. Peep in to know how she learns to value her life and fight with all the adversities this life has to offer her. Its true that having a normal life is difficult whether it be anyone. Even a 5-year old will have its problems. How much may the life be happy and beautiful, it can be anything in the next moment. We cry, we laugh, we break, we want to end it but still we love living it. Waking up everyday with a hope that today will be better than yesterday is life. Life is life and living it the way we want to is a difficult task which we have to achieve ourselves. _________________________________________ Zoya hesitantly knocked, "May I come in?" She asked and waited for the permission. It was not long before she was asked to come. She entered the cabin and walked towards the desk taking small steps with her head hung low. "Please have a seat." He said looking into a file. She sat slowly and started fidgeting with her fingers. "You may think that no one can see the marks of your failed suicide attempts on your wrists..but you were not able to cover them up enough for me.." He said not looking up. Her eyes widened in shock and she looked at him bewildered. _________________________________________ Let's join Zoya in her journey to live a life without any support... [𝐑𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 𝐨𝐟 𝐬𝐮𝐢𝐜𝐢𝐝𝐞 𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐦𝐩𝐭 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐩𝐚𝐧𝐢𝐜 𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐚𝐜𝐤] This book is only available on Wattpad. [Started: 28.08.20] [Ended: 26.07.21]Complete
My Dance Dream
Hey! I'm Winifred. People think I have it all,my parents are famous and I'm ridiculously rich but there is one thing I don't have and it's something even money can't buy and it's the one thing I desire the most. Also i want to be a dancer,that's my dream. At a dance Academy I meet new friends,terrible enemies,shocking situations and a whole lot of lessons which push me farther away from my dream. Will I overcome or crumble? especially if one of my obstacles is associated with what I desire the most. Want to know more about my story? then....READ MORE!!!.Complete
Revenge In Love|✓
#𝐁𝐨𝐨𝐤 𝟏 𝐨𝐟 '𝐁𝐈𝐋𝐋𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐀𝐈𝐑𝐄𝐒 𝐑𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐍𝐆𝐄' 𝐒𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐬 ... "Why can't you handle the truth? The real truth is, you're not a man enough, Arjun!" That was all Siya had to say. Arjun roughly picked her up, carried her out of the bathroom, and threw her onto the bed. Siya was taken aback but didn't let fear show. Arjun hovered over her, his expression a mix of anger and determination. "Now I'll show you how much of a man I am." He said, smashing his lips against hers in a forceful kiss. Siya tried to push him away, but Arjun pinned both of her hands with one hand and held her cheeks with the other. He parted her lips and continued to kiss her aggressively, biting and nibbling at her lips with intense fury. "Arjun, let me go! Leave me, you bastard, you fucker, leave me!" She screamed, but Arjun ignored her pleas, kissing her with fierce determination. She lost track of time, feeling as though she might suffocate. Finally, he pulled away, and she gasped for air. Before she could process what was happening, Arjun tore her dress in one swift motion and threw it aside. Siya was completely shocked, but when she realized she was left only in her underwear, she quickly tried to cover herself, but Arjun didn't give her a chance. He locked her hands again and began attacking her neck with frenzied aggression, biting and sucking, breaking the skin and drawing blood. "Arjun, please let me go! What are you doing? Arjun, let me go!" Siya cried out in excruciating pain. Her cries made Arjun come to his senses. He released her, and Siya seized the moment to push him away and sit up. Seeing her in such a state, Arjun became aware of what he had almost done. Before he could speak, Siya slapped him so hard that the sound reverberated through the room. REVENGE IN LOVE by~ @Tales_of_the_lovee🦋Complete
My vampire mate (currently re-writing)
A 15 year old girl faces the extremes starting from a young age... Abuse, mentally..physically..emotionally.. hatred, depression, suicidal thoughts, attempts, and more. All things she eventually had to learn how to handle on her own. But a vampire now... how will she face face this new ' extreme'? I grew up with a abusive family, all of them reminding me every day how worthless I was, how i was the mistake and the one ruining the family name, and didn't Belong. Until one unexpected night I was taken by a guy who is a vampire and claims me as his mate... Y/n is a teenage girl who is abused and hurt by not only her family, but other people she meets at school, she was counted as a outcast, freak, etc.. one night she goes out and is almost raped but is saved and kidnapped by a guy who ends up claiming to be a vampire who claims she is his mate, and that she belongs to him. Will she find love with him? Or will she fight their connection? ^ THIS BOOK IS WRITTEN FROM YOUR POV (point of view) ^ *swearing* * inappropriate * *slow updates* *first book* *no hate please if you don't like it stop reading* * probably extremely cringy* ( You have been warned) ( not very good at descriptions you'll have to read to find out) > This is a copy right story< READ AT YOUR OWN RISK BUT PLEASE LOOK AT THE TAGS, THIS BOOK CONTAINS MASSIVE DEPRESSION, DEPRESSION THOUGHTS, SUICIDAL ATTEMPTS, AND MANY OTHER THINGS THAT CAN TRIGGER MULTIPLE THINGS IN THAT CATEGORY, INCLUDING EATING DISORDERS. PLEASE IF THIS IS A TRIGGER FOR YOU, PLEASE DO NOT READ THIS BOOK. Thank you. #4 abuse 2021 #16 attempted rape 2021 #3 in abuse 2022Complete
{Since I, the creator am extremely burnt out and out of ideas, take an LMK self-insert} [NONE OF THESE PICTURES ARE MINE UNLESS I CALIM THEM. That includes the cover] ------- "Sen it's time to go!" "Coming!" I responded closing the LMK edit I was enjoying, Summer break finally was here and I was too excited to see my little sister! Finally everything was coming together! _____ My lungs ache and clench desperately as I fail to open my eyes, soaked in blood and debris I can feel everything I ever hoped for leaving me... Nora...I'm so...so- _____ "..." I exhale somberly as I flex my fingers to their best of limits, till the thick gauze and bandages force me to relax... How come I remember everything that happened? That doesn't really happen in resurrection right? Aren't I supposed to forget my past life? Well, I do still have my phone...and I look almost identical to before... Did I even die? Or did something else happen in those few seconds? _____ A seemingly normal yet depressed teen, only 19 and a half... Summer break should've been the beginning of blessing after blessing... But this was a nightmare...one that she somehow coped with...and continues to. _____ 'I don't have time to cry anymore-! Their gone! I'm dead! I'm just a dead memory to them now! It's not like mom will miss me!' _____ "Look kid, the more you grumble about how bad life was to you, maybe you should- "Should what? Let loose? Have fun? Be an impulsive jerk-!?" It was obvious my snap back caught the legend off guard, but...I didn't care... I don't care... _____ "Look MK...There's nothing you can do to help me, your a hero......not a god." _____ 'OH GOD HE'S HOT-!!' _____ One summer, one train wreck, a few bad discussions, and a lot of kettle chips. The Jade Locust will continue the fester and devour your soul... I will make sure of that. _____ Hehe, Writers block go BRRRRRR [Started: June 9, 2023] [Ended:June 26, 2023] Note: I've now made Sen 19 years old.
More detailsContent Guidelines